I wish I could tell everybody that...

I

I wish I could tell everybody that I really am trying my best, that I

I wish I could tell everybody that I don't want to settle for this life. That, while it looks fine to them and it's better than many, I feel like it's slowly killing me. I feel like my heart is breaking every day. But I feel too guilty to say any of that.

@mylifeaseva

I wish I could tell everybody that...I'm internally screaming

It's difficult being in a relationship with someone who's not had the greatest upbringing, who's still being reminded daily of this upbringing. The negativity, heartbreak and disappointment being constant. It's difficult because I see her. I see the struggle. The depression. I love all sides of her, even when it's the darkest of days for her. It's difficult because in a span of 1 week, it's filled with negativity. She's found the comfort and solice in me and therefore shares it with me. I will always be there for her because I want to be the one to give her all that's missing within her.

But..

I too am not okay in life. The difficult part here is that I an empath and just keep taking on the weight of the world. Of her. Of myself.

I can't leave her and I won't. She cannot help what's happened in her life to have broken her this much.

It all just gets too much for me at times, and it's one thing I'm struggling to cope with seeing that I'm leaving myself behind at the same time.. Sometimes I wish for the negativity to quiet down for atleast a month.

I could use as much help as I can get

I am dealing with (undisclosed health issue) and that I really can't be pushed to achieve like I use to. I want a break.

I am definitely asexual and perhaps aromantic, although sometimes I wish I

I wish I felt like I didn't have to validate myself to everyone just to feel self worth

I hurt deep inside, i feel like a failure, i feel like no one lives or cares about me.

i wish i had the strength to kick him out tell him to leave and never come back.

i wish i just didnt exist