I wish I could tell everybody that...
i'm not happy. I'm not okay.
but i smile anyway.
:)
Something that I want the people that I encounter in my daily life to know is: that Im sorry. Im sorry for being wrapped up in myself. I want to get to know others and I love people and want to understand them, but I am very afraid of letting my walls down. Id like to be a good friend, but Im afraid of letting others down because the way my mental state is, one second Im your BFF, the next I want to dig a hole and live in it, avoid you. My actions are so inconsistent, my mind so hard for myself to figure out, I wouldnt want you to have to deal with this. I know everyone has their troubles. Maybe one day I can get to know yours too. Until then I hope you understand that I need time and space to figure everything out.
How much care, i'm not good at showing it
I know I may come of sarcastic but if you just take the time to talk to me, we're could actually get along and you'd find out I'm a nice insecure person
I am an introvert and find it extremely difficult to make new friends. But, once you get to know me, you will understand how deeply I care about people.
Don't let me go.
Don't let me fade away.
I know I've gotten better and I know I tell you all I love you, i do and I look so "innocent" pretty even
But that doesn't mean I love myself at all. That I'm kind to myself.
No matter what I act, I need help.
I wish someone would have noticed me sobbing or knocked when I was in the bathtub so long or asked me what happened? I wish someone would have stopped him, and her. I wish somone would have asked what I wanted or just listened to me when I answered
It never ends. I know you think I'm all these things. But I promise you I am just as shattered and afraid and crazy as the things that I've seen. And I try every day. To hide it and be kind and gentle and forgiving and apparently I do it really well and people say I'm so loving and kind and that's Great. That's not fake.
But idk who I am
I promise you I can be good
Don't let me fade away
And to everyone who has gotten me to eat and has shown me love in any way I am eternally grateful.
@wittySpruce8187
Also we're people. We are just like you. We aren't any of the things you made us believe we were.
I may not really have a family besides my mom and sister. There's a lot I don't know.
But I still believe that who we are is something beautiful and strong otherwise we wouldn't have survived for thousands of years.
We are just like you we are good and bad.
I am not just 1 thing. I am many things from many people and God loved them all.
There is no such thing as a better ethnicity. Or the right way to look or be born.
It does not make you a worse person if you have less. Money gender ethnicity mental physical ability it does not make you nothing.
I and struggling with depression and need help badly
I'm still in love with a woman from 20 years ago. And I hate myself for that.
I need you to tell me that I can do this, because I'm trying my best and it doesn't seem to be enough.
@bluerien
hey ...u can do this at the end it just need some patients and time don't worry
@bluerien
Hello Bluerien!
I dont know who you are or in what situation you are but it can get change and get better. Maybe Not all at once it is a process. Maybe it gets worser and then better noone knows. I know you can do this! You are strong enough to face whatever this life is giving you. It can get hard and Dark sometimes but you are not alone in this! Keep your head up Dear!! I am here with you!
@bluerien
oh! you can, and you will
I want to be saved .
I cant do this anymore
