I wish I could tell everybody that...
I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not happy that I want to die everyday no matter how hard o try I wish I wouldn't wake up in the morning
@Depressedfreak1 I feel the same way! It hasn't gotten better in a long time. But I guess losing hope is the one thing that we can't do. I have personally known people for whom things have gotten better over time. Here's wishing that they will for us as well. I read a line of poetry once that said no matter how dark the night, the morning will come, we just need to wake up when it does!
@neatTangerine2300 it's really hard to wake up I've been like this for 7 years
That I am really paranoid about social media and them collecting your information. I trust nothing in this world.
That on another forum, the admin from hell removed my privileging privileges for bullshit reasons having to do with power and control. I was told to wait whilst they "discussed it" and after a month no response. So I told them to bugger off.
That a friend of mine no longer talks to me partially due to a coke problem and I sent this person an email today that will no doubt piss them off. And that I love them so much I cannot bear the thought of losing them to this drug and their denial of their issue.
That almost everyone I've encountered in my life is just a bully on some level and I am fucking tired of battling bullies . I need to move which is near damn impossible in my situation, but the triggers from the past have almost destroyed my mental health.
That I'm tired of the same dark thoughts and flashbacks. They suck.
That nothing in this life is OK and never will be b.c. the powers of evil are the only ones that seem to ever win.
That personally if we go to war and the world gets blown up in my present mood I don't much care. It would be a relief to get out of this brain.
That almost everyone I meet sucks except for like a handful of ppl. I think it's ninety to ten, the ratio I have in my head now. Ninety percent drank the kool-aid and live to be prats, the other ten percent are still trying to love themselves, others, the earth, do the right thing. Most are just blind and ignorant and cruel reflexively and b.c. it shores up their sense of power. They don't care about you and never will.
This is my list, and it's all bullshit, just like life at present. If my friend dies, I will go fucking insane.
Today I tried suicide, but I was a failure even in that.
Sorry for details, but I need to tell someone what I did.
First , I thought I had the courage to cut my self.
Second, I took the printer's USB cable ( long enough) which I tried to a tree and to my nek.
I was standing over a chair.
But I didn't have the courage to let go.
Then, I realize that my father has an Insuline pen with 80 UI, but expired in 2016, so it would not have affected a hypothetical hypoglycaemic coma.
Wasted day
Sorry for my english but I'm not very good to write very good
I'm bisexual and that I have a crush on one of my friends
i wish that i could tell everyone that im pansexual and i have anxiety that makes me worry or that at times yes i want to die but ill be okay so they dont have to worry but i cant :(
I want to be better
I wish I could tell people I'm an atheist
I cut, I stopped? my mother isn't god at being one, my father always finds a way to make it my fault, im fairly certain that I have depression, I have way WAY to much pressure me.
I hate myself and I wish they would understand, it's exhausting living like this
@proactiveSummer8337
I've been there. Note the past tense. As this will pass, eventually. Sometimes they take a while to pass. I also wish the people around you would be more considerate. Life's hard and sometimes they don't realize the same situation you are in, they could be in too.
Sometimes when I smile, its most often to just hide the pain. Day by day I try to find the good in life. It is hard because I often feel alone. I don't tell anyone about what is happening with me because I do not want them to feel like they are carrying my burden on their backs.