I wish I could tell everybody that...
I'm asexual and I never felt sexual desire. I don't get wet when I see a man naked and I don't masturbate when I watch porn.
I'm a nudist but that doesn't mean I will give you nude pics.
To my fucking ex, who " regrets that he met me " : I had depression and cut my legs because you made me feel like the last shit on this planet. I hate myself for wasting my time with you. Now i know that i deserve better.
To my parents, who supported me only financially : more than your money, I needed true friends to talk with, not fights and physical punishment. Stop comparing me with my brother, stop telling me how better he is and how I'm gonna fail all of my life if I can't be more than average. I'm sick of comparation and discrimination. I can't wait to leave this fucking house and live how I always wanted.
I am not trying to be mean. I want to be your friend, but having anxiety and not really having the appropiate social skills, may make me come across as unfeeling. I do care about you, I really do want to get to know you.
I don't even have enough money for food for the rest of the week, and I'm depressed and sick.
I. AM. ENOUGH.
I am human, I make mistakes, and even though I am always trying to move forward, somedays I feel like I'm being drug backwards and that's ok because I will never stop finding ways to move forward.
I get very hurt by personal remarks.
Give me a damn break, I'm not functioning at optimal capacity since I can barely eat and sleep.
i wish i was happy
Because I don't matter to anyone, you don't matter to me.
@Sb145
I can relate to what you feel, but I want to say to you that you do matter. Maybe not to the people in your circle but as a person we all deserve to feel like somebody. I want to be a caring friend here for you.
Life is hard and sometimes people make it even harder. But you have friends you just don't know about yet.
@scarletPear1945 I don't matter to the one person I love most in this entire world. I miss him, so very much, he has no idea.
@Sb145
That has got to be very hard to deal with. I wish I had a solution that would work in your favor.
When people come into your life and can walk out on you, Maybe they were not for you. Maybe there is someone much better waiting for you whom you can give your Love to.
ScarletPear1945
My biggest fear is alienation, Abandonment, and rejection
@scarletPear1945 those are mine too...everyone thu is Im so strong and confident...but Im slowly unraveling at the seams and I have no one to pick up the pieces I when I do. People always expect us to be strong, dont they?
@warmheartedHuman2014
You re so right. I sometimes get sick of people telling me how strong I am, Yet I am falling apart inside. People tend to make judgments
about one another by what they see on the inside surface when the emotions are dying
@scarletPear1945
isnt that everyones biggest fear
I was supposed to go to my uncles wedding. He and his fiancé already paid for everything, including the plane ticket. My dad refused to take me. He keeps calling me stupid and selfish and spoiled and lazy. It hurts. It hurts really badly. He says that hes never called me any of these things but he has. He calls me delusional and a liar and crazy. Im not. Im telling the truth. When I argue back he tries to intimidate me. And when that doesnt work to his liking he starts hitting me. Id rather he hit me then my younger brothers, but it still leaves marks. It still hurts. I know that no one will read this. Thats fine. I need to get this all out before I do something my friends would be unhappy with. I so tired. I dont know how much longer I can last.
