Personify Your Depression: If my depression were a person... [fill in the blank]
Personify Your Depression: I learned about this coping technique today. Imagine that your depression is a person separate from you. The idea is that personifying our depression helps remind us that depression doesn't define who we are ourselves, and that invasive self-critical thoughts we experience often come from our depression and not our healthy minds. Some things to think about are: what kind of person would it be, what kind of hobbies would it have, what would it look like, what would its name be?
So, if your depression were a person, what kind of person would it be?
If my depression were a person, I would tell it to leave. Hopefully.
The thing is, I'm not even quite sure what it actually could be. Imagining it as a person, I don't really consider it a person on it's own. More so, it feels like it's part of me or an attachment, a growth on my back. Weighs me down and convinces me that a lot of things don't matter.
You know how it's hard to see your own back? Like going in circles trying to catch a glimpse, maybe I could confirm there's a way to peel them off. I just don't know. It's just difficult to rid of something that's hiding from behind at all times.
If depression were a person I would beg to just let me be. Stop interfering with my life, my goals, my relationships, etc. For the love of God leave me alone.
My depression would look like a normal person at a far away glance but when you inspect them closer you see black scales around the left eye and a wicked smiled that torments your mind.
My depression for me most of the time is this hole I can't seem to get out of. I can see the top and I can almost reach the top my fingers. I can feel the top of the dirt at the edge but there's nothing to use to pull my self out. Some times though that hole is filled with concrete and it has me stuck in this almost dry state where I can barely move. Sometimes just my feet maybe up to my waist there are some days though that feel like I'm going to drown but I cant because its got me stuck with my head barely poking out far enough to breathe shallowly. There are days where I dont know what the hole even is. There are some that it's right there waiting for me to fall. There are days where the hole is only a figment of my imagination that I can see there is no hole but I do not want to leave my hole because I'll just be right back in it like it was never gone.......
It had give depression a character role. . . it's like deaths cousin with skin. (Note death or repear is usually a skeleton with a black cloak. Depression wears all black, greasy hair, no make up, dark rings around the eyes. . . he would look hot if he would like himself enough to do the work, but life sucks and he brings everyone down. He usually has a dark grey storm cloud over him.
If depression were a person, it would be this really skinny woman, with long straight black hair and white skin, who plagues my nightmares. It would be this woman who torments me constantly, who tells me that I should be better, that I need to be perfect. It would be this woman who orders me to harm myself, to destroy me because I will never be enough... for anything.
And sometimes, somo other times, depression would be me, cause I'm my worse enemy and I can not stop myself from sabotaging me.
Maybe cancer.
It's hard to get rid of and it slowly eats you inside, until there's no more left of you.
@FindingMyselfInTheDarkness wow that's a good one
The grim reaper.
If my depression were a person they would be cunning, strong and stubborn. As a person depression would know how to sneak in and out knowing which buttons to push and then slamming down on them until I collapse. And as a person, depression wouldn't let go of that button until I can't feel warmth from the sun anymore.
