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Rebekahwriter13
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I am diagnosed with anxiety, depression, and ptsd. I got to watch my ex boyfriend die from cancer. I have several other health issues. . . Sleep and hormonal. I just want to have friends I can count on with my social anxiety and make money with my writing.
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Listener/Buddy
Healthy Living / by Rebekahwriter13
Last post
 September 13th, 2021
...See more I'm seeking a new listener buddy to exchange messages back and forth on the messager here or a forum. encouraging. . . venting. . . listening. . . I just seeking someone who listen and a bonus understand me.
Overwhelmed
35 & Over Community / by Rebekahwriter13
Last post
 May 25th, 2021
...See more I am in a very complicated living situation. I have no privacy. My health issues are all over the place. I have carpal tunnel, gout, swollen legs, and female issues (PCOS). I'm trying to get better. I'm in love with a guy (he is my boyfriend) but his ex is still in his life. It makes me uneasy, but he tries to get serious with her she threatens to do bad things. We both suggested therapy, but she just gives excuses. I also found out an old friend really likes me. He knows I'm in a relationship, but I'm just all over. Im not sure how to tell others how I'm feeling. Which is scared, overwhelmed and confused. My priorities are my health and a better place, but I can't lose my friends and boyfriend.
There is just so much
Anxiety Support / by Rebekahwriter13
Last post
 April 26th, 2021
...See more My brother is amputee has sleep issues and pain problems, and he wants alcohol and wants it now. He has heart issues so none of his doctors will give him any type of meds for pain or sleep. They said weed but they will not sign him for a medical weed card. Problem is glasses of alcohol are NOT enough, he needs bottle and if I deny, he goes to my mom and others. When he is drunk is either a wannabe know-it-all with no facts and rubs it in, or he has that drink one too much and either gets mean or passes out. He is going to get hurt, but denies he has a problem. My family is stuck in a bad living situation . . . I have been researching but everyone is raising their rent. A friend offer us a to check out this place, but they are still working on it. It's been over a month. My boyfriend's ex is trying to get back into his life. (He and I live 1200 miles away and he and ex live 800 miles away) She is trying to get back into his life and visit him knowing that he is happily going out with me. However if he tells her no and to go away, she plays the suicide card. She has attempted at least ten times and been brought back but doctors several times. Her grandma died last year and she has no one to hold her back, but she lack a maturity and empathy towards others. I try to be friends with her, but I feel like I'm dealing with a love-struck teenager. The problem is she really hurt him breaking their relationship of three for a guy she knew six weeks. Then she pushed us together (I have always loved him as we had history. He and I are taking things very slow.) Now she is trying to weasel in. I believe she needs friends and support, but I think she needs to understand what she did to him. She shattered him, and he is still picking up the pieces. (I push therapy on both of them. I think they both need professional outlook on it.) She is trying to visit him first, but I do not feel deserves it as she it going to want to get emotional and physically intimate with him. (He and I made a promise that I have to get my family out of a bad living situation before we can meet up.) I struggle to find work, because of my social anxiety (I am supper picky), my energy issue (severe sleep apnea), gout, and now my wrist are giving me trouble. My brother is currently the only income. (I'm not counting my uncle, because he wants to stay in the same town and we cannot even afford a one bedroom place in this town.) I tried several times i get therapy or work online, I can't no privacy and I get family members constantly interrupting. Problem is with my anxiety i cannot live alone. I have a boyfriend but he live 1200 miles away taking care of his mom. There is not a meeting anywhere in sight as he made me promise not to see him until I get my family out of the bad living situation. However if it wasn't for him, I would have given in to my damn dark demons a long time ago. I've tried to get SSI for my anxiety, but they want me on pills. I have had very bad experiences and I will NEVER go back to pills. Baking is my one of my mediation, I have no kitchen. Cats bring down my blood pressure and anxiety, but i cannot have one here. Writing and coloring help me, but my wrist, specially right has been tingly and in extreme pain on my index, middle and ring finger and thumb. I think I have carpal tunnel. I know I should go to a doctor, but they just sit and blame my weight. I'm afraid to see that I have full blown diabetes and they will push the insulin. I am 38 and I will NOT be addicted to man-made hormone all of my damn life. I cannot do Metaformin it kills my stomach and intestine. I have no idea what to do.
Social anxiety
Anxiety Support / by Rebekahwriter13
Last post
 May 6th, 2021
...See more Right now: I am still tired and drained from yesterday (and I got about nine hours of sleep.) Yesterday Mom and I went to Walmart which we rarely go. Since the pandemic, we rarely go out, because I cannot risk my family to get sick. My brother is an amputee and a heart patient, and mom and I have lung issues. Yesterday mom and I went to Walmart, it was crowded for a Thursday, and I lost her twice. I have a phone, but she doesn't, and each time I lost I had a panic attack. Everything we looked for was picked over and it was hard to simply enjoy shopping.
Dread feeling
35 & Over Community / by Rebekahwriter13
Last post
 April 6th, 2021
...See more I have this feeling of dread. . since Sunday night. It's like something bad is going to happen, like I am going to lose something or someone. I am not sure why or what? I hate to admit this, but this horrible feeling is worst at night. I feel like a kid who watched a horror movie and now is scared stiff. I don't even want to go out, if I don't have to. I have writer's block. However I cannot truly describe this feeling of dread. I've had several panic attacks. I have been so jumpy. The thing is I am NOT like this. I am the go-getter. I am the errand girl. I LOVE to shop. But now I am just feel scared.
Difference of PTSD and PTSD-C?
Trauma Support / by Rebekahwriter13
Last post
 March 7th, 2021
...See more I have been tested several times with a few therapists. . . I was told I have extreme depression, anxiety, panic attacks and PTSD. I have know my tramatic events were just one time things, but there were a few that happened to me several times. . . what makes PTSD to make it complex?
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