One word to describe how I feel today is....
One word to describe how I feel today is....
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scared
Aware
Betrayed
@lazyKatz
Yup, betrayed by people you loved and trusted.
Disapointed deeply leaves us so flustered.
Some people just don't cut the mustard.
Users you us, and I'm so discusted.
Betrayal's poison is the worst.
It leaves us a feeling like we're cursed
Them scumbags think of themselves first.
They use like pros that have rehersed.
@humorousDay8793
I'm always left with the feeling maybe I could have tried harder. Maybe there was more I could have done. I'm aware I could have been in the wrong, if that was the case I only wish I knew how I could have helped the situation.
@lazyKatz
Yes, but you have to believe in yourself because when the get you to doubt they gotchyou, then the own and control us because we refuse to believe that the people we love can be this evil and manipulitive, but they can be, and they are. So we walk around in doubt wondering and sad that who we love must go, so we mourn their loss and from a distance they still affect our lives and continue to hurt us. They use our feelings and emotions by holding them hostage. So we are stuck in their bondage with all the pain, while they move onto their next victom. It's crushing us to have to believe this reality.
@humorousDay8793
Life can be very cruel, sometimes it's difficult to believe people can purposely be hurtful.
@lazyKatz
You're so right! We don't want to even consider believing they can treat us like that. The main reason it's just so hard to believe is because we are good-natured kind-hearted people that would never turn on somebody in those ways. It's heartbreaking to consider the very people we would lay down our lives for: would'nt care-less if we we're gone unless they thought they could take even more. 😔😔😔😔😔
But when you realize this, you can begine to understand that's who they are. We must face this fact so we can stop doubting ourselves and be able to move on with our lives "without them" We must never let those people near us again! It's very difficult, but it is so important or we will never be free from the harm
@humorousDay8793 this was really helpful advice, thanks for your contribution :) I'm going through something similar.
@dworth257
I'm so glad all my suffering brought me the unexpected gift of a bit of wisdom i can share with you so you can begine to protect yourself from what ever users that are taking advantage of you. I'm truely blessed to have finally been able to see the problem that was right in front of me. It took almost a life-time to get to this point for me. If i can help othets defeat that learking evil hiding in plain sight for others, than some real good has come out of this after all
Blessings! 😊
@humorousDay8793
Sorry to interrupt, but im am very impressed with how humorousday managed to write out sentences like this.
@lazyKatz
I know it hurts. The feelings suck.
Most importantly I hope you do not have my mentality of holding grudges. - It drags and hurts even more.
Take time to think about it.
@mikenai22
Yes, grudges and hatred are a way the betrayer still is affecting our lives so we must cut all ties physically and emotionally. Hatred is like poison...
@humorousDay8793
yea, it seriously sucks.
too bad i cant seem to let go of. I still have many held on to myself and i am paying the price. While the "other" just enjoy/continue life without needing to pay any of the rent (my pain) in my mind.
@mikenai22
Im in the same boat. I tell myself to forgive and forget but my life and everything i lost is so challenging due to a family member stealing from me. So when my old junk car wont start and the rust get worse day after day, i think of it. When im putting my last $4 in the gas tank, I think of it. My life is so hard and money is so tight that i am constantly reminded of the 750k taken away.
Im broke, no joking, Its so thought provoking
A Paniced frantic manic maniacal mess
Depressed upset no mental health Acess
Broke, broken busted and flat out stressed
Fear changes Challenged totally obsessed
Wonder wander a wickedly hard test
Factual disfunctional finatical cardiac arrest
@humorousDay8793
I feel very sorry for you. It has been tough. No matter what happen, please take care and keep a lookout for youself.
@mikenai22
Thank you very much, im really trying to do right but unfortunately now i find it impossible to trust anybody, so ive isolated myself in full protection mode (i have ver bad pstd, depression, idiation) so im always alone and I really suffer. Ive got many serious health issues and find it difficult to explain myself to my doctor and i resist ever following through with getting a psycologist or any theropy. Its like in order to protect myself, ive put myself in far more danger as my only support is 7cups now. Everything is so hard. My landlord doesnt fix anything and wont replace the washer n drier so i just had to lug 85lbs to the laundrymat, my doctor thinks i dont care about my health because im out of resources to drive to theropy and dont trust the one they have after i saw him one time. Its all such a mess. I focus on 7cups because its saving me. I need to get my will back and work on my physical n mental health but no gas money so i only leave home 3 times a month to food shop, the doctor, and pay rent
@humorousDay8793
See that you manage to find 7cups as a good mechanism for you. I am happy for you, and don't lose hope and forget about it. Whenever you need aid or support do remember your support options.
I hear you and your struggles with professionals and landlord. It is difficult. Everyone has their own needs and perspective. It will be difficult to change others to align with self-wants/perspective. Everyone has their own battle to fight against. I apologise that I wont be able to advice anything much. Only thing I can say perhaps is that you do not give up. Whenever you find openings, energy, strength to try something new/old, don't lose that opportunity.
Stay strong.
Exhusted
Forsaken
Nonexistent
regretful
confused, scared
worthless, hated, isolated, lonely, devastated
@dworth257 you're not any of those things
Optimistic 🙄