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When things are bad, I'm suffering with anxiety issues with a touch of OCD to make it worse.

When things are going great, I love playing games, watching TV and going for hikes in nature.

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Anxiety and Fear
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 Friday
...See more So, I have been learning a lot about myself and my anxiety over the past several years. Today I’m learning… well, not learning, but trying to reason with myself about what I need and my fear of asking. My therapist … and really, every motivational speaker… says that I need to ask for what I want. If I need someone to call me, I can’t expect they’ll do it. I have to ask. But its not that easy for me. I have a ton of fear in me that drives my anxiety. I want to know how someone is feeling so I should ask. But then I’m afraid- what if they tell me and it’s bad news? That sends me into an anxiety spiral. What if they say things are fine? That sends me into a “what if they’re just saying that “ anxiety spiral. What if I reach out and don’t hear back? No call or text message. That sends me into a severe panic mode where my brain struggles endlessly to figure out the why and figure out how to fix it. This is a very exhausting way to live and I was just wondering if anyone else goes through this.
All Day "Fight or Flight"
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 November 9th
...See more So, I got some news yesterday evening, and while it was upsetting, I felt like I was in an okay place when I went to bed.  I had stayed up late (wanted to for daylight savings), and I took my prescription valium (very low dose) to help settle my mind. I played a few games in bed and fell asleep.  About 30 minutes later my body woke up to a raging, "fight or flight" panic attack.  That was probably about 2am.  I was up every hour, and I have been unable to shake it.  I've done deep breathing, I've gone for a couple of walks.  I get temporary results, but then it just comes back - sometimes even worse. I'm exhausted.  I have been dozing on the couch, but my heart starts pounding and no matter what I do, my brain just puts me back into full panic mode. What can I do to at least try and take some of the edge off of this attack.  I'm going on almost 14 hours and I'm scared and exhausted.
Game Apps for Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 October 5th
...See more I'd like to hear some recommendations for apps I could add to my phone (IOS) for anxiety relief.  Specifically, I'd like some games that are relaxing, easy, calming and can keep me distracted for a long time if needed.  I have tried several over the years but nothing I've really stuck with too much. I've had a major anxiety attack and I just need to find something that will help calm my mind.
Day long anxiety attack
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 September 26th
...See more Struggling.  I wake up - anxiety.  I try to work - anxiety.  I try to get my errands done - anxiety. I've been up for about 8 hours now and I'm completely exhausted. My brain is really irritating me today.  It's so frustrating to have my brain tell me to be worried about something that doesn't even exist.  I'm using all of my "tools" and none of them are working.  Breathing, meditating, focusing, distraction, grounding, CBD.... It's a day long attack and nothing is helping to make it any better. What can I do?
Took a Couple of Steps Back
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 June 24th
...See more I have been doing pretty okay with my anxiety.  I mean, I have my moments, but through therapy, a lot of time thinking, analyzing, meditating, surrounding myself with good energy, etc. I am so much better than I was a few years ago. Yesterday I had a setback.  I received some information that triggered my anxiety and I felt like it was four years ago and I was back to reacting the same way, panicking, wanting to cry, feeling helpless, and just generally moving toward a full on panic attack. I guess the good thing - if there is a good thing in this - is that I recognize what I'm doing and why I'm doing it.  I know why I'm scared/panicked and I'm addressing it thoughtfully.  I'm looking at the situation, using tools and strategies I've learned.  I'm not just curling up on the couch in a ball and crying my eyes out. Do I feel better that even though I slipped back into my old ways, I recognize it and I'm making it "less" that I used to?  I don't know.  Just because I can see it for what it is doesn't make me feel better or lessen the stress of it all.  I guess that's going to be the next part of my journey in all of this - accepting it and feeling better for it.
How to support someone with depression
Depression Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 July 19th
...See more Hi everyone. I recently found out a close relative has been suffering from depression.  I mean, it's not a surprise - they had depression issues as a teenager - but now they're an adult. (And I had thought the previous issues had been resolved)  We're very close, but I found out about the depression from someone else.  I think they're trying to protect me in some way from knowing because I'm dealing with a lot in life rn and I guess they didn't want to "burden" me with their problems. I'm looking for ways to support them.  To help them.  I mean, I know I can't help - I understand that that's a journey that the need to work through with therapy and doctors and such.  But, I can support.  I just don't know how.  Or what's the best thing I can do.  This relative is very special to me, and I hate that they're going through this, and I'm scared for them, too. I appreciate that they are talking to others about their depression, and I know that's a good thing.  I don't necessarily feel "left out" if they are trying to protect me (even though they don't need to protect me).  I just want to "make things better" in some way. I'd love to hear your thoughts.
I'm Tired of Being Filled with Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 May 22nd
...See more Seriously, I feel like the older I get, the less I'm able to cope.  But then again, maybe I could never really cope all that well, and it's just that now I have more and bigger problems than I did when I was younger. I'm tired of waking up with anxiety.  I'm tired of the minute I wake up my brain immediately wants to think about everything that bothers me.  I'm tired of not being able to stop being anxious for things that I have no right to be anxious about.  I'm tired of my brain making things up in my head that keeps me in a state of constant anxiety. I'm tired that no matter what I try, meditation, therapy, cbd, exercise, grounding, breathing... unless I do it all day long, it only helps temporarily. I want this to stop.  I'm tired of feeling this way.  Do I just have to stop caring about everyone and everything, and take on a solid "I don't care!" attitude in order for me to put focus on myself first? I don't know but I could sure use some answers.
Change = Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by thoughtfulmomma
Last post
 March 29th
...See more I've been going through a lot of "life" changes the past few years - and change is never my friend.  Change gives me a ton of anxiety, even if it's good change. Lately things are in full-on "change" mode and that means I have been in some serious panic mode.  It just is getting a bit ridiculous and I'm frustrated that I can't seem to move beyond these feelings. Are there some things going wrong? Yes.  Are they dire, terrible, horrible? No.  But, you know how that anxiety brain works.  EVERYTHING is terrible.  I'm exhausted.  Why can't my brain believe that everything is okay?  Because it is.  It's not great, but it's not terrible.  So, come on brain, help me out. I've only been awake a few hours and I'm already exhausted from worry.  The worry that my mind creates. So, I'm trying to breathe.  Trying to make myself believe the truth instead of the lies the brain tells me.
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