How do you visualise your depression?
Depression is one of the hardest things to explain to our loved ones, because it robs us of our very ability to communicate, and it's so easy to believe that it's a part of us, whereas in reality, it's something that stops us being us. How do you see your depression and what name do you give it?
I tend to view depression as a wave that pulls us under the surface of the water - we can see the surface, see the light, but it stops us swimming up to get there.
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It's like a fog so thick that you see everything in a greyish hue and it was hard to breath, i couldnt move. Your body suddenly feels tored without you doing anything. Your purpose is gone or is in hiding. You don't know why you walk forward anymore
@Leafygreen I feel so interpreted by you...
Like i am in a bubble. No one else around me is in a bubble. They are connected to life.i am not. The bubble stops me connecting and partaking in life.
An old bike trail. Where the cracks and holes can be deeper than others.
Just a void, pitch blackness everywhere. And no explanation for it, just existence with no escape.
On very bad days, its like black evil miasma taking over your soul and turning you into something less than a human. Its like as if I feel different than the rest around me and I can't relate well to them.
But on better days like now, its like being in my own little comfy box just enough room for my best friend and my computer,keeping out the things that makes me feel depressed in the first place. XD
I see it like a dementor. It feels like you can't be happy anymore.
(yes, potterhead here)
@moonchild29 same, also a potterhead
I see it as a twin of myself that is dark, weak. I see it as a skeletal, faded version of myself; A parasite in fact. This Parasite becomes more visible and stronger as my depression tries to take hold but it fades away occasionally when I feel more like Myself.
I feel like im on a small, claustrophobic, glass box. Its filled with water, and im tied to a chair thats floating, and spins around, makibg me look at all the people i love. At the same time, someone is talking to me in my head, telling me awful things about myself.
My depression is like my own dark shadow my second shadow I got myself and my best friend tagging along to see what it can do being in a depressed relationship doesn't also help partner always grumpy and pead off which gets me down a lot I don't hardly talk to him.anymore so my depression turned into my friend cause it's the only friend I got I tell my shadow depressed friend you want to tag along with me by my side just please don't get in the way at times I wanna have a good day it feels like the dark shadow is pulling me towards something but I try and use my will power and pull back towards me other times I'm sitting in a dark hole waiting for someone rescue me
At first it was an enemy that made me cry every night and I hated him. He became the only person that talked to me, but his words soon hurted less and less. At some point everything he said started to make sense. Now he is the only one that understands me. He isn't an enemy. He has become a part of me, and now I can't remember life without him. He is the darkness in me, but something I made peace with. It is the emptines in me that is getting bigger every day. I can't live with him or without him. I would like him to go away, but he has been with me for so long, he knows all of my secrets and scars, so I don't know if it would still be me if a part of me was gone.
