How do you visualise your depression?
Depression is one of the hardest things to explain to our loved ones, because it robs us of our very ability to communicate, and it's so easy to believe that it's a part of us, whereas in reality, it's something that stops us being us. How do you see your depression and what name do you give it?
I tend to view depression as a wave that pulls us under the surface of the water - we can see the surface, see the light, but it stops us swimming up to get there.
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Like a dark, bottomless abyss.
Sometimes I have visualized being outside (like in the street) and seeing people laughing and being happy inside some place, knowing that I can only watch from afar
Like unraveling a ball of yarn, only for my soul, like its being dragged away and left behind every waking minute
Like an evil entity which produces depression inside your soul
My depression is like a cloud: some days rainy and storming and other days just blocking the sunshine. The cloud is indicative of all other weather conditions to come but also can change rapidly from a normal cloud to a dark gloomy cloud. It is rare that I can look without seeing a cloud in the sky but it is also rare that the cloud is the only thing I can see. For life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain.
I visualize it as a big, ugly and scary monster that follows me everywhere I go. It's a barrier that I can push away but it will come running back. I can tame this monster, but it will be here for a long time before it finally knows its place.
Hello...My depression insists on being ever so constantly close. It is a very heavy cloak of darkness that wraps u in its darkness but its opposite from a hug. It just envelopes your entire body arm legs feet, and seeps internally as well making it 100 times harder to accomplsh anything but just stay alive on those bad days...
@baZzchik54
Really good description
@baZzchik54 couldn't agree more
It's like being out in the water, it's night, cold and dark. Panic, desperation, fear and you are absolutely exhausted trying to keep your head above the water. Then, it grabs you and pulls you under; you have no energy to fight and no one hears your screams because you are alone.
I just feel like I can't get out of it. It just keeps coming in waves and the waves just get bigger everytime. I feel swept under and like I'm drowning. I feel like my body is going to explode from all the pressure.
Floating in a timeless dark tunnel that sucks all light out of me and reality. Being wrappped in cellophane and dropped into a bowl of gray jello. A knife dragging itself through my body, leaving me flattened, dry and empty. All of these things are reasonable for a failure like me to experience.
And I know that none of it is true.
Visualizing my depression, would be like that voice inside your head, that tells you when and when not to do somthing. Except this voice always puts me down, when I think I'm feeling happy, this voice comes up and always makes me doubt myself. When I'm sleeping it creeps up into my head making me restless and ponder about my life. Or during the day little everyday things spark my mind and everything goes from bad to worse. No matter what I'm doing its like that voice inside my head won't let me have any peace.
@aquaLychee7095 thank you for sharing that. I thought I was going insane & that sort of thing only happens to me. I don't have any advice for you because it seems to be haunting & toying with me aswel. All I can say is that your not alone.
