How do you visualise your depression?
Depression is one of the hardest things to explain to our loved ones, because it robs us of our very ability to communicate, and it's so easy to believe that it's a part of us, whereas in reality, it's something that stops us being us. How do you see your depression and what name do you give it?
I tend to view depression as a wave that pulls us under the surface of the water - we can see the surface, see the light, but it stops us swimming up to get there.
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I have synesthesia, so for me, depression is navy blue. A reall, faded, navy blue fog that makes a low humming / hissing noise as it goes past. Even though its fog, it stabs throigh my thoights and constricts my brain- if a thought was a fruit, depression has limbs like knives that slice through them. It passes, like fog does, but it always floats back in. :(
Depression for me is that long term friend that never really goes away. It's that friend that pops up and drags you down when you least expect it.
That friend that strangles you with their words & makes you feel like your choking. That friend that makes you feel less than worthless & helps you crawl out of a whole. Reassuring you that the darkness is comforting & making you afraid of the light. Making you believe that sleeping forever will solve your problems, that you'll finally rest, believing that no one understands no one hears you & that no one can help you.
