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BrightRedFlower2322
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wonderful mother to a beautiful girl been through a lot want to make friends share my story help others :)
I enjoy spending time with my family ,books music adventures nature animals and craft's I'm here to try to help
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mind full of everything
Relationship Stress / by BrightRedFlower2322
Last post
 June 25th, 2017
...See more My mind is full of everything right now I'm thinking so much doubting so much worried about so much my past I still in the present but it's kept in a box chained and labeled so that part stays trying to get my ex to stop his bs and move on like I have I got a lot of mindful thoughts anxiety and everything else boxed in I don't hardly talk much to people so that's why it's bottled up inside I tried but arguments happened and moody moods so would keeping a diary and writing it all down to release my mind full of crap would that be a good thing n help or nah!! Cause I'm stuck in middle wanting diary to have less in mind and mor room so not over loaded or keep it as it is where its full and its here their everywhere.
I have a question on PTSD/ TRAUMA
Trauma Support / by BrightRedFlower2322
Last post
 November 6th, 2016
...See more I tried to find a forum for PTSD but it didn't come up with anything so I ain't sure if this is the right spot to put this if it isn't please let me know thank you ​​​​​​I've been having this on my mind for awhile now are there anything to help with PTSD medication advice what to do and how to help I've been trying to figure out what to do to settle it down a bit like I gave done with my anxiety and depression and panic attacks but this one I'm still trying to figure out and since I couldn't find any forums on PTSD and trauma I'm asking here how do you cope and what do you do to help ease it a bit and is there anything I can do to settle my PTSD thank you :)
This Is What Happened Behind Closed Doors
Trauma Support / by BrightRedFlower2322
Last post
 October 22nd, 2016
...See more MY DOMESTIC VIOLENCE STORY WHAT HAPPENED N HOW I GOT OUT At the age of 19 I was 8 weeks pregnant I told this guy that I was pregnant I was over the moon in joy cause I've longed to be a mother and I finally was that moment things changed the guy flipped out in anger he pushed me yelled at me saying it wasn't his he dose not want it at all and tried to punch my tummy till I blocked it with my arms protecting my unborn baby every day living with this guy was hell his family even tried to make me have a miscarriage by making me walk in tgre heat up this huge massive hill even cars struggle to Get up it I nearly went into tears all that I went through my mind was thinking my poor baby behind closed doors it felt like dying was better than this the guy hit me yelled at me strangled me just because I was touching things pushed me every day and night into the floor an walls I cried and I got hit for that I cooked and cleaned still got punised for that I tried leaving the house I g punished for that too he also locked me inside the house and sometimes locked me out of the house he tried to kill my pet bird I screamed every day and night running all through the house while crying and screaming I got pushed hit thrown around the house stuff thrown at me he treated me like a slave made me do shopping while heavily pregnant and made me change his car tyre cause he couldn't be bothered to do it himself I couldn't have friends he treats women like garbage and treats them like slaves everything to him is women's work and men just boss women around that's what he thinks in public he would call me names I cried I went to get into the car and he drove off on me and left me at the shops to walk home all my money had to be spent on him I had my period one time and I was broke cause of him I had nothing to use at that time I criued so much I locked myself in the bedroom sometimes in the bathroom when I was in labour I found out he was cheating on me and kept doing it he tried to kill my daughter at a day old by holding her body so tight she screamed he destroyed my daughters bed when she was a few months old he verbally abused her a lot she witnessed me get beaten up pushed yelled at he pulled my hair out damaged my wrist he rapped me I didn't get to hgeal very well after birth damaged my ribs I screamed out so loud while crying he don't it all in front of my daughter she saw it all heard it all and felt it all while in my tummy my daughter and I been through so much had a very bad torematic pregnancy and life of almost 3 years of this domestic violence one day I locked myself in the bedroom with my daughter crying behind the door my baby put her hand on mine I made a promise to her in my belly that I would always protect her with my life she will always have me she smiled I looked into her eyes this isn't a life I want for my baby being treated like this like a slave shell grow up thinking that's how shell be treated by men for the rest of her life I knew from that moment that's it enough is enough I told her this is mummy keeping her promise to you sweetheart your my Angel I made a few arrangements with my money and my family I told him I'm seeing my family for a week you can't stop me from leaving you can't keep me like a prisoner here I have my rights to go on my own free will he didn't say nothing left me to it I packed my car with loads of bags I told the guy I'll be back in a week but in my head n heart I'll never be back again a week later my dad picked up the rest of my stuff moved back in with my family which felt so great and good was back to my happy normal self again I have to live with the pain and damages for life and I got diagnosed with bipolar depression cause of what I went through IM STRONG AND WILL KEEP ON FIGHTING NON STOP NO MATTER WHAT AND I'LL ALWAYS KEEP MY PROMISE TO MY GIRL FOR LIFE FOREVER I'LL ALWAYS PROTECT HER NON STOP FOEVER AND ALWAYS thank you for letting me share this and let it off my chest thanks :)
this Is What I Survived From
Trauma Support / by BrightRedFlower2322
Last post
 September 20th, 2016
...See more I will be sharing my survived domestic violence story I met this guy when I was 18 him and I were great together happy after few months together things went a bit weird he attacked his mum and brother we had to move from his mums to his dads for 6 months and was treated like a slave a bit there then moved into a car for 2 months him and I were great when we moved into a flat in 2012 I found out I was 8 wks pregnant at 19 I was head over hills very excited him on the other hand kept saying it wasn't his and he tried to kill my unborn baby I stopped him he thrown things at me called me names push me around and against the wall and strangled me for touching his stuff found out he was cheating on me that's why he was protective of his phone when my pregnancy went along further he got more angry and violent he would beat me push me yell at me chase me out the house lock me in or out of the house wouldn't let me have friends be happy I couldn't cry laugh cough nothing I was his slave bedroom and house slave he made me change his car tyre while I was heavily pregnant I couldn't rest I was made to sleep on the floor on a old springy stains mattress while heavily pregnant I was very depressed and sad he bossed me around I had to do everything cause he thinks men sit on there back side and boss females around everything to him is women's work when I gave birth he rapped me in front of my child he pulled my hair out damaged my ribs and wrist nerve and tendons damaged I have to live with the damage for life he hurt my daughter so many times he teared the skin in my private area so I didn't heal very well after giving birth he done so much damage to me and my child I screamed every day and night wake up beaten go to bed beaten my daughter saw it all heard it all felt it all while I was pregnant with her I screamed for help so many times I got punished for that by my ex past mistake life my ex gave me bipolar depression cause of what he put me through every day I have to live with the pain I can't do much can't walk far can't sleep on my right side cause of the ribs I can't hardly do much and my ex thinks its a funny game he treats women like trash
Just Want To Be Left Alone
Depression Support / by BrightRedFlower2322
Last post
 September 8th, 2016
...See more Sitting at the table eating dinner partner cracks the shit cause I cooked dinner but wasn't up to his standards he threw the plate of food at me yeslls out inappropriate stuff and breaks his model statute and kicks the wall hits the chair now I'm hiding in the bedroom until he clams down can be awhile doesn't help me any when he gets like this I'm a bit upset and down
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