Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I honestly feel numb from everything but I get these overwhelming episodes that just make me wanna give up, but I'm holding on for my family

Today I feel empty. I feel as if nobody can actually help me anymore. It's been a few years now and I still feel numb. I want to love myself but I don't know how. I feel lost and scared.

I feel tired and stressed out again. I went a LONG while being pretty optimistic and happy. Now, it's just like I've been hit with a ton of problems.

I feel disappointed in myself for not being able to be an adequate human being. Not being able to pay attention in class or do homework, not learning anything, not being interested or motivated to learn anything, disappointing everyone who believes in me, and overall doing nothing productive. The worst part is that I'm completely aware I'm doing nothing and I complain about it and yet I'm doing nothing to change it because, well, I don't care enough to.

Guilty

I feel like my place on this planet is pointless. Life will go on for many others wheather I'm still here or not. The stars will still shine, and the sun will still come out. I want to live my life, but I'd like to live happily, and that's not happening with this depression. I want to better myself so I don't hurt the people I love, because that's all I do. I feel like a burden on anyone. My existence is less valuable then others. If I'm in a busy place I'd rather wait quietly then ask you to move for me. To sum it all up, I feel like absolute crap. Lime I'm garbage. I feel sad, lonely, anxious, scared, confused, and useless.

I feel like a fraud. Smiling on the outside when I'm miserable inside. Honestly, no one would ever think there' was a single thing wrong... Fakin it till I make it.

Worthless , empty and suicidal

Misunderstood, no one seems to understand what I'm going through or how to help. Honestly they just make it worse most the time.

I feel like there isn't anyone on my side.