Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Once again like because of my gender, I don't matter as much to my family .

I feel alright today and I hope you guys do too!!!

I feel sad...I miss him...I try not to think about it and accept it..,I cried...I feel like an alien and so alone..,I feel horny and proud of my sexual awareness but then feel like that may be keeping me from finding a quality man because no one marries the woman who wants to make love more than they do...I want to be true to myself but no one understands me but him...and he is afraid and damaged. I love him and all of him. I don't want to change him but love him and grow with him.,,but I haven't seen him in 7 months or heard his voice in 5...only emails, text, and selfies..,I just want to see him and hug him tight...but he is fat away and trying to keep himself busy so he doesn't have to think about his problems. I know its highly I probable that he will make time for me or that things will change..,so, I stepo back and accept I will never feel his arms around me again or fall asleep listening to his heart beat...I also feel like I will just have to accept the guy who wants a commuted relationship anD who is nice to me...even if we don't have a special connection because I only connected with people who need nurturing without responsibility. I feel like my life will always be unfulfilled and I will always be on the outside looking in.

I feel hopeless

I feel like I'm a mistake.

I feel selfish for wanting help when there's other people who have it worse. I feel like my problems don't matter.

I was feeling pretty good, a little anxious, but now I just feel sad.

overwhelmed, angry

I feel like peacefully falling to sleep,

Letting my world go black..

and never waking up.

Not dying

just sleeping 😌

Like a balloon with no air.