Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I woke up tired and stressed.......for a while I cried a bit..then I started playing with watercolor paints so I feel more so ok.

I could say that I'm feeling pretty average right now, but there's a lot that's being unsaid.

Why am I alive? I have to make these decisions, and I don't know what to do with my life or how to make it worth it, and there's so little chance of success and I'm so alone and bored of it all and I don't even want to keep going...

I want to kill that evil person spreading chaos everywhere.

Idk, I am felling kinda empty and numb.. I hate this state, because it's hard to get out of it.. I wish I could just stop existing, and yet, I do want to get better, but for now I'm just too tired. Well anyway, I know that someday it'll be better, so I should work so I could reward myself when I'm over this

I surprisingly feel pretty good today

I hope everyone is having a good day :)

I had my depression flashbacks this morning. But eventually I stayed positive and made it through the day... I still believe I will be alright with time

i tried killing myself last night, i just need someone

Hi all

hey, newbie here on 7cups. never even thought about depression being a thing for me until very recently. sometimes i just enter a period of unhappiness where i can't get anything done, and i just want to do nothing at all, not even the things i love. in fact, what are the things i love? i have no idea anymore, but i do know things i used to enjoy seem to have faded. i went online to search up more about depression, but i know nothing beats an actual person's opinion. anyone here has depression and can let me know more about your experience and preferably has learnt how to not let it get the better of you and basically has learnt to handle it better? i think i need to be clear once and for all if i maybe have depression and what i can do about it. thank you all so much for your time :)