Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Just smart enough to know that I have no business being in existence.

Wonder what it's like to be worth a damn, something more than just a constant struggle for nothing and future statistic.

I feel like crap today.. Nothing good happened

Frustrated because I want to be happy again. Then again, I also feel determined to fight the sadness and to come out of this stronger than ever.

I feel completely numb

Stressed depressed sad lost confused worried hopless

Mostly Riddled with anxiety and numbness. At the best times I feel just distracted. Like everything is just floating under the surface. The anxiety makes it where I'm constantly unsure and on edge, but the numbness stops me from caring about it. So it's like I'm at war with myself, and it's both mentally/emotionally exhausting.

I'm upset at myself because I wanted to meet this one person, and today was the perfect time to do it. I didn't meet them though. I didn't even meet one new person. Now I'm in my house alone having to deal with the fact I didn't get to say a word. In the back of my head I'm like "oh yeah I'm sure you'll meet them sometime in the future." But I want to make sometime in the future now. Because I'll never know how long they will be here.😞

Very depressed. And hurt. Come on to get support and everyone is busy.

Anxious, scared and all too aware of what could go wrong in life. No energy, no motivation, I get very anxious through the day time and I calm down at night, most of the time. I feel I just lie around during the day waiting for night to come. I've been a good person 99% of my life but I feel so much guilt for the 1% when I've done something bad, it consumes my thoughts all day everyday. I want to forgive myself and move on.

Today, I feel fat. I don't have a disorder, I wouldn't try to comprehend what people with prolific eating disorders go through every day, I just feel... Fat. As I'm typing this, I'm brushing crumbs from a donut off of my pillow. I'm not even hungry. Just sad that I feel fat. Which in turn makes me eat, which makes me fatter. It's a vicious cycle and the worst part is I've been here before and I've beaten this demon but it's just clawed its way back into my psyche, stronger than ever, like a virus strain that's used to fighting the medication used to treat it, so the medication is useless. All I think about is food and how much I hate myself for thinking about food. And thats depressing. So today, I feel fat.