Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Rn I feel like dying. My depression and anxiety went up since school started and my self esteem got lower. And I stressed. And my family or friends aren't helping. And I have no one to ask for help really tbfh.

I feel completely lost. I feel stranded and all of the things I've hoped for are evading. I have my family but they're moving, I have no money and no place to go. The man I love refuses to put down his emotional walls to me so I can't go to him for help and my dream has to be put on the side. No one besides family and him believes in me, and none of them are or will be here. I've always been the happiest person in the room, a stallion if you will, and they have ( my manager/ the music industry) finally broken me into submission. I'll get back up eventually but right now I feel lost, confused, and broken.

I tell my best friend I love her a lot. She said I said it to much and that hit me really hard. I thought I was saying it to much but now that she said I was, and my fears were confirmed, I feel so alone. She seems echoed towards me. Like she doesn't ever know what to say around me anymore. I lost a few friends over the months, recently I lost my other best friend, and now I feel like I'm looking her too. I feel stranded and annoying and so so sad.

Trapped lost lonely always hiding to not get judged.A nothing

i feel like empty anymore because i was so depressed and i was hurted from my bf.I found a way to stay away him from my life I'm really sorry for this bu i had to.So i guess i feel guilty.. I'm trying to forgive myself

There's been an enormous weight on me lately. I feel isolated and broken today.

Feel exciting and scared at sametime xD , feel recharged since i slept early, feel light cus im doing my training routines to get healthier body. Wish me cus i will meet someone who help me alot at this phase.

Stressed and desperate. I'm trying to fight off the deadlines, but I slowly start to loose hope. I can sense the impending doom.

And the little voice inside my head is whispering that I will fail no matter what, so what's the point of trying? Current efforts are pointless, because I should have acted much, much sooner. The panic is well-earned.

Undoing is close and I just want to be over with it...

Lost, hopeless, alone, anxious, ridiculous.

I've just felt constantly sad and angry today. I've been feeling like this for a while. I don't know what is wrong with me