Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I'm scared. I don't know what to do or think anymore. I just wanna cry all the time.
@Nunah I'm so sorry, that must feel so isolating! I know how you feel, but I'll try not to empathize too much because sometimes, people need more than that. So, let me tell you something. No one really knows what they're doing at all. Not even that person you idolize. Even that person feels like that sometimes. It'll be okay, even though it doesn't seem like it. Try and fill your brain with nice smells and calming music and smiles and happy thoughts <3. Do what you love, as long as it's not self-destructive! I want you to know that I do care. Best of luck!
I really want to just give up but I keep trying to push myself not to.. If I could just pack up and leave it'd make me so happy
@AeroRoze3 I am so glad you choose not to give up. That means that there is this tiny speck of hope inside you. I know it seems unreasonable. You're saying "I want to give up", etc. But a tiny part of you is begging you to hold on. Try and find that little part of you and listen to it, okay? You don't have to escape a stressful situation (unless your health is being affected, of course!), so try and cope. What's something you do as a hobby? When you feel distressed, do that thing. It'll be okay. You can get help. I promise.
I felt like I needed to smoke today or be on something take some pills .. I hate when memories kick in :/
10 years of every day wishing I would die... 10 years of loneliness. Or more.
@poisontongue I think I feel lonely but I've yet to feel that lonely. I'm not really afraid of being alone but to me it is the most sad feeling. I hope you feel better soon. My heart goes out to you.
@Centaurii The worst part is not being able to do anything about it...
I feel alright. A little depressed though.
@boldBlake91 I'm glad you feel okay! That's amazing! Enjoy it while it lasts to its fullest. I know I sound cliche but try to keep the feeling of not feeling depressed in your mind. It can help bunches <3
I feel down and sad and out of touch.... I also feel like I'm just lazy and that I'm not as bad off as other people.... I hate feeling like this. It's lie a cycle that just gets darker. I have a good support group. I have really good friends. I am in teh process of (today actually) going to try and get some counseling. I know I should be seeing a shrink and be on medication. I stopped taking meds and seeing my doc when my insurnace ran out a few years back. I know that things aren't as bad as they seem but that doesn't change the fact that sometimes it doesn't matter. I wish that I could stop feeling like I'm making this all up and that I could be okay if I really tried... It's frustrating to be mostly okay for a few weeks and then slowly start to go down hill. I feel like I'm getting closer to the Darkness and I don't want to go back there. I have a job now (and even though I don't get many hours it's something) I just don't want the darkness to take over I'm tired of feeling like I turn my life over to my depression. I have lost jobs and homes and a lot of my life when I have gotten really depressed. I hope that's not something that will happen again. But I will continue to fight, as much as I can. Remember to take care of yourself, you matter even when you don't feel like you do.
Not actually terrible. I don't know how to turn away from this road I'm going down though
I feel neglected and I don't know why. My s.o. is great and does everything for me... so why do I feel so lonely inside? I think some of it is because he's not a generally mindful person. He's very hyperactive actually and smokes a lot and I just feel alone in the relationship. It's like... i know that he loves me in a way like i have all of the evidence and facts but in my heart i don't feel loved by him. I'm passing out on the couch right now because being physically alone feels so much more free than being emotionally alone and right next to somebody. I know that ultimately I'm the only one responsible for my emotional state and so i have a hard time blaming others for my unhappiness, even if I'm justified in doing so... i just don't know how to fairly determine if I'm unhappy because of him or myself and what do I do? This is probably the wrong section for this but I just typed up the whole thing on my phone and am just venting and I struggle with depression, too, so yeah sorry. Just venting.
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I feel stupid and once again used.
A supposed "friend" of mine all the sudden had morals last night when it comes to being faithful. and it really made me think. I tried to get him to fix this a long time ago, recently as well. But I don't know...it was wrong again..and its making me think of my middle school days.. That was a seriously dark time and very upsetting..
I don't know..I'm sorry about this..
Exhausted. Couldn't sleep. Exhausted from the constant depression looming over me, im tired of trying to get better. maybe i will never become better and it terrefies me
