Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I don't think I've been so depressed in a long time, and there's nothing I can do. I can't even die.

Everyday it feels like my head is filled with this fog, and it's really hard for me to function throughout the day. At night I get so sad and it hits me like a ton of bricks. I don't know if it's my depression or bipolar disorder or what.

I'm filled with anxiety, I'm still treated like a disease by my mom and I seem to not matter because I'm not 18, I can't express my issues because I'll be mocked by my own family for my anxiety and depression and I feel so helpless

i am filling very sad cause another one of my suports i am not doing well at all

I feel shitty. Im taking it day by day.I talk to someone and i get my hopes up and then i crash off my high again. i just want out of this dark never ending tunnel. i want to feel happy again. to enjoy things i used to. to stop crying all the time.

Today I feel okay... Not good but not bad. I still don't like waking up feeling like this

I feel a little better

School's out for winter break.. And I basically failed almost every final this week..

I'm home for two weeks and that's enough time to get myself together. I'm not saying "new year, new me" but I do need to get better.

I don't understand why everyone I meet ends up treating me like crap. Today, one of my "friends" (not anymore for sure) spread a rumor that liked someone. I don't even like them as a friend much less a crush. They found out and they won't stop looking at me with disgust. Everyone thinks I'm a freak and they won't believe me. The other people I call "friends" treat me like trash whenever I try to defend myself from this one person in the group. I just don't understand what I did wrong. I feel like such a disgrace to my parents recently. I just need some sort of end.

Today was bad. Not gonna lie. im feeling lonely and annoyed with life, mainly school. High school is depressing and i just wish i didnt have to listen to the girls behind me gossip and laugh. Takes everything in me not to turn around and tell them to shut up.

I feel exhausted and frustrated. I keep getting sent to new psychiatrists and I've only just moved here 2 months ago. They keep changing my medications every week. My stomach is in knots, I'm hallucinating more than usual, and my brain is on fire. I just wish this could have happened before I moved so that I would have my support system around me. Don't get me wrong, my dog is a great listener, but I need more. I'm 23 and living in a small town and they won't take me seriously unless I lie and say I'm suicidal (which I've thankfully never been). They just keep throwing benzos at me and call it a day. I just wish there were more options for me. Just because I'm not risking my life doesn't mean that my life isn't at risk.