Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel drained..I just wanna sleep and feel better for once

I want to feel like I did before, happy

I have been diagnosed with having clinical depression. I have good days and bad days. But most of the time I have bad days

I like I'm failing as a parent. I am a stay at home mother. I have a one year old and she is happy, healthy, provided for, and mentally advanced but I can't help to feel like I'm not doing enough. My daughter comes first before anything else including myself. I can't help but to feel like I am not only letting my daughter down, but my boyfriend and myself as well.

Today, I feel more dead than alive. Total honesty here.

Hollow

Broken

Less then human

Like I shouldn't be here anymore. I don't feel worth it.

On December 24th, it will be a full year since I've last self harmed. Yes, that's good and all, but a part of me, the cruel and heartless part of me, wishes to ruin my own success. I guess I'm not as supportive of myself like I am with others, huh...

Today I feel sad but also cautiously hopeful.

A liar surrounded by walls

I'm ok... No that is a lie

How have you been?

I've been great I'm loving life right now....sorry that is also a lie

Do you want to get to know me...just wait while I build my wall , just in case you get too close

Honesty and being transparent is a very hard thing.

True friends are in short supply, I have a handful of them but I haven't seen them in a long time.

I am as bored as it gets, I have nothing left to live for.

My faith is dead

My spirit is dead

I am without purpose

I need more out of life.

I feel numb.