Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I don't want to do this anymore, but I'm too scared to end it. I'm losing everything.
How do I feel....hmm....angry as usual (this happens imo after frustrating YEARS of depression, because I didn't used to be), anxious and angry. Always that, so it's not upsetting to the extreme. I am used to those but it may be a little more than ever.
I feel alright... Not particularly happy or sad, but okay enough to function. I just keep hearing in my mind the mantra that is often associated with recovery, "God please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change." There are things in my life I can alter if I simply take the initiative. And others that I am completely powerless over. And that's okay. That's life. But how I handle it is up to me. So I'm really trying to keep pushing.
Today it was all I could do just to get out of bed. I can't keep doing this.
@mjiyn2010, sometimes it is the only thing we can do. And that's enough, lovely.
If our brain screams at us and makes it impossible to perform even the easiest thing, the "mere" survival is an incredible achievement.
Breathe and wait. Just hang on it, wonderful. You can do it, because you already survived the hardest days in your life. You have 100% rate of success and that's amazing.
Please, let us know how are you feeling today. We care about you.
*hugs*
@Spes Thank you so so much for your kind words!
@mjiyn2010, anytime, wonderful. I really hope you feel a bit lighter right now.
Intrusive thoughts pushed me to the point of nearly getting 2 anxiety attacks. In school. I can't do this much longer, I'm going to crack and I don't want that to happen.
In school I tune out and over think about why all my friends don't like me anymore. They leave me out in school and if they do talk to me it's very distant and I hate it. I keep thinking about how much easier it would be to be dead...
I feel like I'm running on empty, I wanna die
I felt like this earlier today... Listen all I can see it, you are stronger. We both are than this depression!
Today I feel motivated, like I am actually moving forward.
@wut661 That's amazing! I hope you feel the same today as you did a few days ago. Congratulations on your mood boost, seeing that you felt like that made me smile. Keep on fighting <3
@Monarda Thank you! I do still feel motivated and I am feeling quite good today! It is slow progress, but after many years I feel like I am finally doing something to get myself better :)
Today has been a weird day. Some time I feel really horrible and just want to not live anymore. Sometimes I feel energized and that I can take on the world. Overall I just feel sad.
@flyingpenguin You seem confused on what you feel, and it's kind of hard to explain it, right? I understand how you feel though. You'll get better, even if it takes years. No matter how long it takes, you can recover.
If you ever feel sad, there's an amazing thing called the dawn room, the link is right there:http://thequietplaceproject.com/thedawnroom/
It's helped me a ton when I feel sad. I highly recommend it. Good luck in the future!
@Monarda Thank you for that, that really helped me a lot.
I feel accomplished today. Today for the first time in a couple of days, I got up and actually did some things that I really needed to get done. I wasn't having the best day, and it was a challenge, but I gave myself lots of time to relax between each task and was able to make things happen.
@mjiyn2010 Yay! :D Super happy for you!
