Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I am feeling okay today. I accidentally maimed myself with a chainsaw last week, and am still dealing with the pain of the stitches (16 of em) and flashbacks from having that cut me. Woke me up a bit to the reality of doing even harsher things on purpose.
I couldn't go to school today. I've been in rehab for the past year because of depression, and now I'm trying to go back to finish my studies. I'm a mess.
Went to school like normal my friends doesn't even realized that I felt bad. They all thought I'm sad because I lost my stuff and that maybe someone stole it. The fact is that my family is making me depress and seeing them each morning makes my mood at school fall down like waterfall.
Alone. I'll go to school see my friends but none of them get it. I'm not just sad.... It's so much more. All my friends when I'm "sad" just tell me to cheer up but nothing on this world could make me happy. That sounds selfish but that's just how I feel.
Same here. I know they are trying and meant well but it's just wasn't enough.
I have the same feelings
I'm about to do a public speaking thing which I hate....I'm going to breath, smile and celebrate when it's done!
Alone, lonely & hopeless. I find myself laying in the dark & isolating myself more & more. I'm trying to stay strong though & not let this overtake me.
@Acoya but you're here which means you're still reaching out! That's an amazing thing and I know how hard it can be some days. Hold on, stay here with us when you want to push everyone away. You can do this.
Im stuck. Stuck in the past. When we lived in the big city, and I was happy. I had friends, a boyfriend, and the world ahead. But all after we moved from there, I had this one constantly goal.
To move back.
But since my mom or my dad does not get it, Im left alone feeling helpless. What is the point of anything if I ain`t happy. That`s this life is all about isn`t it? And this small town has only did horrible things to me and my family. I hate this place.
But Im not good at school because I lack motivation, and I want to runaway to the big city and never look back. I just want to die, dissepear. Im worthless anywhere I go.
I find it difficult to ask for help as I am usually the one who is helping. I think my friends are tired of hearing it and my partner can't acknowledge his own problems let alone help me with mine. Usually I just end up feeling worse when I try to talk to him.
I had a horrible day. I honestly can't even begin to say what I'm feeling. All my classes today were crap. I literally felt unsafe at lunch..I felt attacked. I fell asleep in my math class today...I don't get why I'm so tired. Like everything is setting me off today. EVERYTHING. I'm trying to watch Rent I'm Netflix... But that doesn't seem to be working..I may not even sleep tonight. Picture day tomorrow..gotta force a smile.
I'm afraid people in my college program find out about my past.