Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Anxiety scared things will go back to the way they were.

Tempted by sharp objects and scared of what they can do it more likely what I can do with them

Well I was having a great couple days.. Since he came back. Now I'm dealing with those "I'll always be there no matter what" p*****. Every single time I try and be even remotely happy...........someone comes and ruins it. Why can't I be happy?!?

I told someone recently about my real life circumstance with depression lately; that was a huge step for me because I have been extremely secretive about what happen.

Now I feel so liberated from it all...like it was millions of years ago.

Each day is worse than the one before it and I can't do anything about it. Getting pushed closer and closer to the edge ._.

I feel unwanted and unloved I am unpopular I feel suicidal but wwho's to stay I dont I want to cut deeper and Deeper it's to hard a struggle day to day life no wanna die I don't know ho to tie the rope I feel like my counsellor don't understand me even my friends who are supposed to be their for me I don't even feel like their eve n their forme my family hate me I hate me it's all to hard

Depressed with suicidal feelings. ... I'm not going to act on it or anything but it's hard to have to battle those feelings. I'll just keep having tea and hugging my dog today. Eventually the feelings will fade away.

I feel at peace... I don't want this bubble of peacefulness to broke, really...

Today has been a series of ups and downs..I got into a huge argument with a person who I no longer speak to. I'm missing my guy...though he's not officially my guy. I won't see him again until Tuesday..its so hard to talk to him..but I always wanna speak to him. Anyways..I'm not really sure how I'm feeling..upset...frustrated.. Sad? I'm just..not wanting to feel. Anything..I'm not wanting to do anything..

I'm honestly sorry about this post..

Geting more and more depressing day bye day doing drugs to keep frome thinking trying to hide my pain so tierd of living like this so ready to be done not geting no whers in life ant nothing changing every time I look arould it looks the same tird of harting