Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
parefr que caer de nuevo en deprecion es demaciado facil, y por mas que tratas estar bien resulta complicado, despues de 6 meses estoy volviendo a tener esos pensamientos de ya no querer vivir, ya.no sr que hacer no quiero volver a esto.
I just want to get away from the world. Everyone that I know is useless, they're just distractions from my thoughts. I don't know who I am anymore. No one knows what I deal with and I want to tell someone so badly, but no one would listen. I wish I could be alone for once. I can't trust anyone anymore because everyone is constantly judging me, so why would I trust them with my secrets again? I'm really stressed and frustrated but I hide it everyday. I hate it, I want it to be over.
I would listen..and I won't judge you. After all we're not perfect..
I feel the same way im also ready to lay down and just be dont with life im with you friand
I feel shitty. I can't find a balance between pure ecstasy and suicidal thoughts. I don't want to admit that my depression is back, but I know that it's there. It's sad to see I've been 3 years without it, and it'll be here to see me graduate high school. I just don't see much point in existing tonight. 
My body hurts. I've been trying to do something instead of just watching TV all day, but my muscles are hurting, adjusting to the new position. My mind is also hurting, trying to adjust. I guess it's like going to the gym. You are trying to do something positive,, but it hurts!
I feel tired and sick. Tired from lack of sleep because one of my closest friends started fighting with me and I spent two hours trying to fix it last night, and sick of this stupid mental illness. It's caused me to stay inside and not be with my friends, and now that I want to go hang out with them, I have no energy and my parents grounded me.
I feel forgotten..
Like the only reason for hope is so that my life can hurt that much more. I do for everyone else but nobody wants me to be happy. They want to keep me in a town I hate so I can keep doing everything.
I am so exhausted today. Every night, I'm up way too late because I can't quiet my mind to get to sleep and I'm worried about the dreams I may have that will stress me out and scare me. Every morning it is a battle to get out of bed even though I know I have to go to work.
@mjiyn2010 what kind of dreams are you having?
@ktbirdie just stupid things that stress me out way too much. One night it was seeing myself take a handful of pills while my sister just stood there and watched. Another night it was being in the place that I feel safest (my best friend's house) and having someone tell me I was ridiculous for self-harming. I feel like that one was just an expression of my fear of losing my safe place or something like that. Anyway, they stress me out so much.
I feel misunderstood.
Alone.
