Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I'm so fucking sad and tired and lonely and I don't even know what to do... Thank you for having this thread to let me get that out, it's the first time I'm saying this to anyone else. I'm feeling super guilty about being depressed because I can't be happy with my girlfriend and I just want us to have a good time together and I can't pull it together. I think I've been expressing irritated outbursts instead of letting her in because she's already helped me through so much already, and I just don't want to overwhelm her. Tonight, however, she came into my room all dressed with friends, and told me she was going to a party and didn't invite me. I can understand that I've been a buzzkill lately, but it hurt that she didn't even communicate the possibility of her not wanting me to come, which I would have understood and respected. I don't even think it was that. I'm not sure why she didn't invite me. All I know is that I was hurt and started crying when she left and still sent her a text expressing my hope that she'll enjoy herself. This is just tonight, too. I'm just so lonely and don't know who I am anymore. There are so, so many things going on, and I have way too many issues. It's becoming overwhelming. All this and a paper that has to get written somewhere along the way. I don't know what to do.
This started out as a one sentence post and ended up being way longer than expected. Sorry for getting it out here if this wasn't the appropriate spot!
Concerned, do i need antidepressants or to see a professional? Idrk but I'm just taking the highs n the lows day by day
Lonely.
I self harmed today for the first time in 5 months.
I've realized that I will be there for everyone in their darkest moments, but no one will be there for mine.
I remember every one's birthday, but not one person (even family) will remember mine.
So, I guess you could say I'm not feeling too great :)
If I could, I'd give you a beautiful birthday cake with flowers and music and friends....I'd take away your sadness and replace it with laughter. I'm just a stranger across the world...but I understand. Somewhere out their someone knows and shares your pain. I wish for you some relief and some inner strength. There's more to your life than the emptiness you feel. I hope you find it soon friend.
I am the same with birthdays. I always remember everyone's but my family can't remember anyone's. It's not because they don't care it's because they are really bad at remembering haha. Maybe your family is the same?
Maybe :)
In our family there are also certain members who forget birthdays. So when it's our birthday we phone those members and say "Hey, it's my birthday! Did you buy me a present?" or something like that. It's one way to deal with it. But I understand that it must feel awful to not have your love and attention and care reciprocated.
I get where youre coming from. I feel like I give everyone all that I can give but if I were to just leave no one would notice
The pain is too great.
Empty.
I feel have right now sometimes I feel down so I use Tom and Jerry or Disney channel to make me feel better and I talk to a one on one counselor too so there helping me find coping skills for later use 
I feel lonely and sad. I don't feel like anything is going right in my life.
I feel the same
Today I feel absolutely worthless. I've literally only left my room once today and only because I absolutely had to tell my roommate about a timing change for a work thing tomorrow. I really just want to go back to bed and stay there but I can't even sleep.
I feel hopeless. Useless. Confused. Worried. One of my friends has been MIA since Tuesday..and he hasn't responded to any of my texts..and it's scary. I dropped my ex boyfriend and girlfriend from my life.... But knowing me who knows how long it'll last before we talk again and act like nothing ever happened.
i feel like an outsider , like i dont fit in
