Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel like nothing. Like I have no feelings. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm just nothing. It's the worst feeling because I don't know what to do.
It's okay, @DeadQueen103, my lovely. It's okay to feel numb, and to be confused. You can be overwhelmed, but remember that all of your emotions are valid.
I also recognize this feeling. It's nauseating and overwhelming, and seems to have no end. It push you to the loop, or a cage. It makes you an outcast of this universe, unable to connect, to feel anything. You know that you should feel something, but it's impossible for you to do so.
I'm here for you, darling. It's hard, when this darkness hits us. Sometimes we just need to grit our teeth and keep push through this storm, to try to walk through this maelstrom, and just wait for a better weather. Focus on one day, one hour, one second only, and keep holding onto it, even if it's seems pointless.
You can do it, wonderful. You're strong, you fought for so long, and I believe in you.
*hugs*
Thank you so much. It's such a relief to know that somebody understands the way I'm feeling
@DeadQueen103, lovely, remember that we are here for you. You can always come in here, to forums to post, or you can connect with a listener - either click a button "Need support immediately?" or choose a specific listener. Or come to us to the support chatroom.
We are her for you. We've got your back, wonderful.
So um my name is sophie. Im 15 and... Im sorry im not good at. This 😳😳
Hi, @ladywildfirel! It's so lovely to meet you ^^
I'm Celaeno. Welcome to our community! I'm so glad that you've joined us.There's a lot of ways for you to connect with others. You can try 1-on-1 chat with a listener, or you can post in a group support room, or in forums. You can follow members and listeners to receive a good dose of inspiration and motivation every day. You can read self-help guides, too.
You can also introduce yourself to others in this thread - it's a popular first stop for new members ^^
Once again, welcome! Take a good care, lovely! I hope to see you around!
Its been nearly a week since i last... Hurt my,self.... But i feel down and drained, but i have to try and act happy and cheerful around my family and,it makes it so hard... Could do with a hug...
Uh oh I messed up ._.
@Feelyourthoughts, don't mind it ^^ It's the intent which counts, lovely.
*hugs*
@Celaeno aw you literal angel 
I'm sorry I can only give you a virtual one and I really hope you feel better! *Hugs* 
@remnantshadow, your hug for @ladywildfirel is so adorable! I adore it ^^
Thank you :)
Hugs:")
@bananna424, come in here ^^
*hugs back*
What do u mean.. come in here
@bananna424, I mean: let me hug you, even if it's only a virtual embrace.
Sorry if I confused you - English isn't my first language ^^;
*Hughs u tightly* Ily hun. We're with you, you can do this <3
I'm so done with this whole existing thing
TW: suicide
Dear @ScreamingForSanity, I'm sorry you feel in such a despair. I am here for you.
I can understand how hard it is to reach out in times of despair. But you have already done it. It is hard, but you still managed to do it and it was courageous of you. I'm so proud! You can overcome anything, trust me. Or trust yourself, trust your voice and your past. You are fighting for so long, you are stronger than you believe. But you don't have to show inhuman persistence anymore. You can ask for help, you can receive it, and you can recover. You really don't have to suffer in silence, my love.
You want to cease to exists. I assume, it's because your pain seems unbearable, and you just don't have a strength to carry one. You just want to find a solution, to break out from this prison in your mind. Still, you're thoughts are the important indicator for something else. Even if you didn't follow on them, even if you were just contemplating death, even if you feel stronger now and think you will never go through with your just-for-fun-created plans, it's a big red flag that something is really wrong. These thoughts are signalizing that you are looking for a way to outlet your pain. No living creature wants to die, we instinctively do everything to help us cope with a given situation. But depression is sneaky and mostly uses our own brain against us.
I really urge you to visit a doctor. I think it will make a big difference to your well-being. Just go like when you're going to the dentist with a toothache - it's the same thing, just foolishly stigmatized by our society. You really don't have to suffer in silence. Asking for help is difficult, but it is worth it. Oh, how it is worth! From my own experience, I can say that it was a turning point for me. I'm still struggling, but I'm not in agony, like before. I know how to fight, and what is the name of my foe. It's a wretched life, to live with an untreated depression, and you don't deserve it, my lovely friend. Getting any kind of treatment is a difference you will feel immediately.
Please go visit your doctor. Or go to this website and make a simple call. Or if you don't like to call, chat in here. There are a lot of people who can help. Here, in this community, we can listen to you, but sometimes it's not enough.
You are so wonderful, my love. I care for you.
*hugs tightly*
Sending my strength and hope to you!
I feel like crap I have so many problems dont know where to start
Lovely @beensetfreeb, maybe start with talking? You don't have to talk about anything specific, just let words fly from your lips - say that you're tired, that you're alone and feel no one understands your pain. That you want to hide away, and want to sleep away your life, but cannot sleep.
Just connect with a listener - either click a button "Need support immediately?" or choose a specific listener. Or come to us to the support chatroom. We are here for you. We will listen, even if you don't want to say anything specific. We don't mind it.
*hugs*
What a perfect day to cry ! :")
@pinkTea, are your tears from joy or sorrow?
Maybe it's the lack of sleep or the loneliness, I just want to sleep and stay asleep for a very long time.
@Feelyourthoughts, so sleep, darling. Indulge yourself and just rest.
It's scientific proven that sleep is one of the biggest factors on successful recovery from depression. I guess our brain is so tired from constant fighting, it needs dreams and soft pillows ease its bruises.
@Celaeno. LOVE this visual.
"I guess our brain is so tired from constant fighting, it needs dreams and soft pillows ease its bruises."
I can so relate and am always hoping for ease of my bruises. Hugs Dear One!!
I don't know how to pull myself from this situation. I feel like I cornered myself into such a terrible fate. I keep hoping that I can change my circumstances and surround myself with people who want to enjoy life without substance abuse but it's everywhere. Family, spouse, spouses family.. I feel so alone.
The people I love most think that I over react and think that I'm crazy. But being on the outside of addiction wondering why people are like this eventually gets to a person. I can't be strong anymore. After years I just can't do it.
I can see you feel in a despair, @TrixRiddle. Having no support from your closed ones is so painful. I'm so glad that you've reached out to us - it was very brave of you, and another sign of your strength, beside of years of fighting. I'm so proud of you!
You don't have to be alone in your battle, though. I believe you can benefit from visiting various support forums around here, especially about addiction. Knowing that they are other people, suffering with a similar hardships, can really make a difference. And also, you can find in there lots of useful resources.
I believe in you. And if you don't believe in me, believe in your words and your past actions. You fought for so long, you survived everything in your life. You can overcome your hardships.
Sending lots of hugs!
"I don't know how to pull myself from this situation". These words show me you understand that it is your responsibility to pull yourself out. You are miles ahead of the people that are stuck in self pity and blaming the world for their problems.
Being surrounded by that kind of negativity is extremely challenging but there is something to be gained from it if you change your perspective. Self reliance. I have been in a similar position as you where I was surrounded by lots of negativity and little to no support. I spent a lot of time stuck in hurt feelings and hopelessness. Then I decided that I would use these negative people as training. Train myself to be stronger, self reliant, someone who doesn't wait for approval and validation because I can give those things to myself. Now I won't say this is easy, in fact it's extremely hard and might take years however if you are successful, self reliance is a life skill that will be extremely beneficial to you. I hope you find the strength to go on this journey and help yourself out! The ocean has so much water but the only way the ship will sink is if the water gets in. Luckily you control whether the water gets in or not :)
I feel depressed today and just tired and living. I'm tired of dealing with everything and I feel like things will never get better. Everyday feels like a waste and I have no idea what to live for anymore.
I hear ya. Today is gloomy for me too. It will get better but it sucks waiting for that to happen and sometimes it's like the harder you try to change things the worse they get. Be patient.
I've been patient for the last five years and things are getting worse. I don't want to wait anymore. I'll be waiting forever.
Why can't you live for yourself. Sometimes when things become overwhelming and our lives feel like the lack all meaning, we need to look into ourselves, we need to do things just for ourselves because we matter. You matter. ... *hugs*
I feel like it's because I don't know who I am anymore or what I believe in. I've been so influenced by everyone around me, I'm not sure what my worth is. And I'm not sure how to even "find" myself again. Without running away from everything now.
It sounds like you need to turn the volume down on your life some. This is the best time to rediscover yourself. Try new things for the heck of it. Find out what makes you happy and then start living. You don't have to live for others or through others. Finding yourself is a great adventure and I promise you, you won't regret it. I've been there before. Sometimes we have to take a few steps back away from everything because we are meant to leap forward and past it to a better a future.
I'm aware of what needs to be done; unfortunately the execution is the difficult part. I care too much about everyone around me to just dump them. I'm afraid to start over; because I'm not sure I should
@MandyCandy0512, actions are always the hardest. I'm a chronic procrastinator, and I can understand how impossible do things look like, before we can overcome them. Do you have any ideas how to start, though?
No I don't. I'm honestly at a loss of where to even start.
@MandyCandy0512, it's okay. I always like to start small. Big things overwhelms me. But I believe you can certainly create some plan. If you'd like to. I can help you a bit.
Our future is made of tiny moments happening right now. So would you try focusing on the present and answering this question?
1. What are you doing right now, at this moment?
2. How are you feeling?
3. What are you thinking?
4. How are you breathing?
5. What is your posture?
1. Currently checking out this site and thinking about everything that needs to be done.
2. Sad and hopeless
3. Every chore that needs to be done and how I'm not going to be able to do them
4. Shallow
5. Slouchy
@MandyCandy0512, Ok, that's great. So you noticed you deep shallow - you don't have to force you to breath deeper, just be observant of it.
You have lots of things to do. It overwhelms you. It's alright, you can tackle them by just listing them on a piece of paper. You don't have to do anything else - just create the string of task. You can drink some tea or coffee, and listen to your favourite music (this is mine) to make it a bit more pleasant. If you start feeling anxious:
a) notice that you feel anxious, and say to yourself, e.g. "It hurts" or "This is anxiety";
b) next say to yourself "This is okay. This is hard, but I know it's not only difficult for me, but to lots of people, too";
c) next say to yourself "May I embrace this anxiety. I can feel this way, and be strong and the same time. I can cry and be brave simultaneously".
Afterwards please answer this questions: why do you think you wouldn't be able to do your chore? Is this thought a habit for you or is it based on facts? What is the evidence for it?
Dearest @MandyCandy0512, I can see you feel low. Can I just hug you?
*embrace gently and stroke your hair to bring you some comfort*
Here, this is my gift for you - it's not much, but it is the nicest place on the Internet I could find.
I understand all of the waiting made you feel fed up. It's okay, lovely. You can feel that way, we won't push you - all of your emotions are valid. I sense you already have so much going on in your life, and that your pain overwhelms you. You're so persistent to wait such a long time. You are strong, and you are doing everything you can to make it through. I'm proud of you.
Can I make this passing minutes a bit better for you? Would you like a distraction? Or maybe you would like to talk to the listener on 1-on-1 chat? Just let me know, I care about you.
We are here for you, we will listen, wonderful.
Love!
A 1-on-1 chat might be helpful. Thanks :)
Just Found out some very bad news. I'm spiraling down again and I can't help it
Lovely @EdmondDantes, I encourage you to connect with a listener - simply venting can bring you some relief. There are a lot of amazing souls out there who will listen to you. Unfortunately I'm only a member, but if you prefer to talk here, in a forum, I'll listen too. We care about you, love.
*hugs*
