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Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Laura December 2nd, 2014

Let us know in 1-3 sentences. Post every day!

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unicornwithafirehorn March 12th, 2015

I'm actually really happy right now, but probably because I just got laughing gas from the dentist. But other than that things are doing sort of okay. Some anger here and there but faking happiness helps a lot, surprisingly!

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Roadie March 13th, 2015

Hi @unicornwithafirehorn

It's ironic how that works, isn't it? I use that for my social anxiety as well.. faking it until I make it works well.. however depression is something that really feeds on yourself.. perhaps that's the answer

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JamieGardevoir March 12th, 2015

Well, imagine a brain that's been modified to feel nothing but as pain as it physically could. Congratulations, that's nothing compared to what I'm going through because it can't be put into words.

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Roadie March 13th, 2015

Wow @JamieGardevoir

It really sounds as though you are going through some incredibly difficult things at the moment. I really encourage you to reach out through 1-to-1 listener chats, group support, and the forums. We're here for you!

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easyNorth7649 March 12th, 2015

I'm actually feeling pretty okay today. I'm not just merely existing. Actually making progress. Not beating myself up so much.

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Roadie March 13th, 2015

That's great @easyNorth7649. Keep it going! :)

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scarecrow87 March 13th, 2015

I don't feel great. I had an amazing day at work because I was working with someone who I never get to see. Rather than finishing the day feeling happy about seeing him, I feel sad because I know that I won't get another day this hood for months. I wish I could have coasted on the positive for just a little longer, rather than feeling abandoned and alone.

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Roadie March 14th, 2015

I can totally understand where you're coming from, @scarecrow87, because I get those depressed feelings after something really positive as well. It's like being on a real high and then when you come down from that you don't feel at a normal level but at a real low.

I guess what I would say to you however is to not be sad about the fact that you may not see them for a while but think happily about the time that you do spend with them. It's a slight change of frame of reference but it may help?

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understandingPeach5244 March 14th, 2015

I just want help. I'm so tired. I just want someone to help me. Where do I go? Who do I speak to? Everything is so complicated and vague and I don't know who to turn to, I don't know where to find a doctor or psychiatrist and I'm scared about the fact that I'm getting so much worse.

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purpledragon87 March 14th, 2015

I'm in a very similar boat...not sure how to verbalize my feelings/what goes on in my mind, and I don't know how to find the right help. It's so frustrating, especially since the mere thought of meeting & talking to a new person is anxiety producing (the idea of finding a therapist stresses me out too much to even reallytry).

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tallShade5419 March 14th, 2015

Same advice to @ purpledragon87. ... Plz hv a chat with ' imran sheikh' . good luck!

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tallShade5419 March 14th, 2015

Hey @ undrstandingpeach5244, plz hv a chat with the listenr 'imran sheikh' n ask for a session. He wil help u definitely n u wil b alright..no need to get help from any psychiatrist..blv me! He wil b available after 2 weeks from now onwards.

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8321nightshade March 14th, 2015

I'm very tired. It's a very very low day. I can't see a point to anything.

Forea March 14th, 2015

I just desperately want to connect with someone. I feel empty and alone. Tonight has been a bad night for me.

Leah9891 March 14th, 2015

I feel stuck, alone, depressed and annoyed. I just wish I could sleep. I am so lonely. My husband is too busy being depressed about being unemployed to see that I am checking out. I find that I am snapping and unable to manage my emotions very well, but I also feel like people at work have tried to pick on me when they were they were all guilty of living in the same glass house.

kindRaspberries59 March 14th, 2015

My cheeks hurt from faking a smile all day today. My mind hurts from all the side comments and insults made about me. My arms are still dripping blood, and ive had at least two anxiety attacks today. Truthfully? Im currently feeling like i shouldnt even be able to move form how destroyed i feel today.

tallShade5419 March 14th, 2015

Hapy, light.. Contented:)