Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I'm actually really happy right now, but probably because I just got laughing gas from the dentist. But other than that things are doing sort of okay. Some anger here and there but faking happiness helps a lot, surprisingly!

Hi @unicornwithafirehorn

It's ironic how that works, isn't it? I use that for my social anxiety as well.. faking it until I make it works well.. however depression is something that really feeds on yourself.. perhaps that's the answer

Well, imagine a brain that's been modified to feel nothing but as pain as it physically could. Congratulations, that's nothing compared to what I'm going through because it can't be put into words.

Wow @JamieGardevoir

It really sounds as though you are going through some incredibly difficult things at the moment. I really encourage you to reach out through 1-to-1 listener chats, group support, and the forums. We're here for you!

I'm actually feeling pretty okay today. I'm not just merely existing. Actually making progress. Not beating myself up so much.

That's great @easyNorth7649. Keep it going! :)

I don't feel great. I had an amazing day at work because I was working with someone who I never get to see. Rather than finishing the day feeling happy about seeing him, I feel sad because I know that I won't get another day this hood for months. I wish I could have coasted on the positive for just a little longer, rather than feeling abandoned and alone.

I can totally understand where you're coming from, @scarecrow87, because I get those depressed feelings after something really positive as well. It's like being on a real high and then when you come down from that you don't feel at a normal level but at a real low.

I guess what I would say to you however is to not be sad about the fact that you may not see them for a while but think happily about the time that you do spend with them. It's a slight change of frame of reference but it may help?

I just want help. I'm so tired. I just want someone to help me. Where do I go? Who do I speak to? Everything is so complicated and vague and I don't know who to turn to, I don't know where to find a doctor or psychiatrist and I'm scared about the fact that I'm getting so much worse.

I'm in a very similar boat...not sure how to verbalize my feelings/what goes on in my mind, and I don't know how to find the right help. It's so frustrating, especially since the mere thought of meeting & talking to a new person is anxiety producing (the idea of finding a therapist stresses me out too much to even reallytry).

Same advice to @ purpledragon87. ... Plz hv a chat with ' imran sheikh' . good luck!

Hey @ undrstandingpeach5244, plz hv a chat with the listenr 'imran sheikh' n ask for a session. He wil help u definitely n u wil b alright..no need to get help from any psychiatrist..blv me! He wil b available after 2 weeks from now onwards.

I'm very tired. It's a very very low day. I can't see a point to anything.

I just desperately want to connect with someone. I feel empty and alone. Tonight has been a bad night for me.

I feel stuck, alone, depressed and annoyed. I just wish I could sleep. I am so lonely. My husband is too busy being depressed about being unemployed to see that I am checking out. I find that I am snapping and unable to manage my emotions very well, but I also feel like people at work have tried to pick on me when they were they were all guilty of living in the same glass house.

My cheeks hurt from faking a smile all day today. My mind hurts from all the side comments and insults made about me. My arms are still dripping blood, and ive had at least two anxiety attacks today. Truthfully? Im currently feeling like i shouldnt even be able to move form how destroyed i feel today.

Hapy, light.. Contented:)

I feel a lot better than most days. It's surprising, but I also feel a bit annoyed that there's still no acknowledgement of how sad I can get and how much pain is really there. I know that soon I will be crying hard again and wishing I wasn't here. Feeing happy is a temporary feeling to me now. My family doesn't notice crap...

Hi, sadness hardly will be acknowledge by others. Important thing to remember is you are not alone. You are needed. Don't gjve up, ok?

I feel lost and alone, that is my usual feeling. A feeling of real happiness is so rare and fleeting, that sometimes I wonder if it really happened.

Tired, alone, self judgemental

I feel the same, but you have to remember that you're beautiful, even if it's hard. I know I struggle with self esteem, but I try to veer away from things that I know will lead me the wrong way. Always here to talk if you need me. 💕

glad,Bored, confused, frustrated that I don't want to be here

You ARE needed here! Please don't think otherwise.

Long day at work so tired. But trying to relax and enjoy house of cards. Only thing keeping my sanity in check at the mo

Like the weight of the world is on my shoulders

like my world is balanced on a pin in the midst of a tornado.

Today hasn't been a good day. The depression is getting worse. I don't know how much longer I can hold out.

Hey music lover, please don't give up. I've been there and still not completely out of the woods, but it it's worth to keep fighting.

I was starting to feel bad today but I remained positve and kept going. I feel okay now.

That's good! Stay strong 💕💕

I feel self conscious, alone, and hopeless

I feel blank at this point... In search to a solution to my problem..

I feel pointless, worthless, lonely and sad.

Alone, sad and worthless

I feel alone. I know I'm not but I feel it. Worthless, dumb, pathetic, awkward, ugly, pointless, retarded, fat, stupid, paranoid.... just a general mess. I just want to curl up in a corner and die. But I have to stay strong for my ma. (major depression and paranoia, she's out of hospital and on medication now though) So there's that. Not that anyone is going to care about my problems xDDDD it's just nice to vent sometimes :3

I feel alone. I know I'm not but I feel it. Worthless, dumb, pathetic, awkward, ugly, pointless, retarded, fat, stupid, paranoid.... just a general mess. I just want to curl up in a corner and die. But I have to stay strong for my ma. (major depression and paranoia, she's out of hospital and on medication now though) So there's that. Not that anyone is going to care about my problems xDDDD it's just nice to vent sometimes :3

I feel the same way sometimes :( and on some days I feel normal. Btw I care haha, it's nice to know there are others going through the same thing as me

:3 >u< thank you, what I've found useful is going through 7cups forums helping other people. Kinda makes me feel like there's a reason for me to be here xDDD maybe it would help you to do the same?? Idk

Aw you're so cute :o , lol talking to happy people makes my day a little less crappier