Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
it's hard to see the light in the middle of darkness. i believe that we have to have hope and trust that all thing's will work for our good, even it does not look like it at the moment. depression brings me shame, i don't think i should be experiencing this.....but i am. Everyday is not a good day. Everyday is not a bad day.
Everyday is worth living even if i don't know the steps to take.
Depression will not define who we are.
it's hard to see the light in the middle of darkness. i believe that we have to have hope and trust that all thing's will work for our good, even it does not look like it at the moment. depression brings me shame, i don't think i should be experiencing this.....but i am. Everyday is not a good day. Everyday is not a bad day.
Everyday is worth living even if i don't know the steps to take.
Depression will not define who we are.
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Today I feel a little bit calm and better after I faced my problems head on last night. At least I finally had the courage to get it out of my chest and actually...the reaction I got was not as bad as I thought it would be. Not great....but not bad either.
That's great. Hopefully whoever you spoke to will be even better about it after they've had time to sort out their thoughts. I'm glad the initial reaction wasn't too bad!!
Today I actually feel just...tired. I feel better than I did yesterday, but I'm still worried about finances. I hope I can focus on more positive things soon.
I feel unlively. I feel as though my body is here but my mind has left me. Im not sure what to do with myself. Imdepressed. Alone. Scared. And more importantly today is the day I gave up. I don't care what happens to me. Im ready to feel like a human again.
Today I feel like I can't do anything right, I'm a large failure to everyone, and everyone that says that they care about me, cares about someone more. My friends don't like me because I'm so annoying and it seems like they just put up with me and pretend to like me and I'm feeling completely worthless and finished with everything.
hi @thelittledarling123
I can understand how you are feeling through my anxiety experience on top of my depression experiences. I know you feel as though they care about others more but don't give in to those thoughts. We are social beings and we need our friends. I know you feel that way but don't let your depression sell you a story that might not be there. Look after yourself, ok?
Feeling weird. My social anxiety almost caused me to have a meltdown at work the other day. My coworkers thought they had done something to piss me off, when in reality, I just needed till be left alone. I wish I could explain to people that I have social anxiety and I'm horribly introverted. Also, I haven't been taking my depression medication. I've put on so much weight since going on it, that I kinda dread taking it again. It beats being depressed though...
I hear you about the anti-depressant medication.. I had similar issues.. did you talk to you doctor about your reaction to the medication? There may be alternatives?
Regardless, social anxiety is a challenging thing, most especially in a workplace because you can't hide :/
The nights bothered me to the point where I have flashbacks and high anxieties. I have them during the day, but I have copingtechniques to deal with it.Except they all involved concentrations. It is hard forme to concentrate and try torelax to go to sleep at the same time.
What coping mechanisms do you use and have you used in the past, @Lesley152?
I used distraction as my coping mechanism and obviously it works during the day, not very well at night. I just distract myself with little jobs like dust the tv, make your bed and make a birthday card for your birthday. I know it seems odd, but I feel like I accomplish something today, not matter how small or trivia it is. And if you don't mind getting petty and selfish, it also feels like I am giving the middle finger to the flashback, to the person who constantly tells me that I was going to be institutionalized for the rest of my life. That I wasn't a good person.
In in the past, I used the rubber band technique. I wrapped a rubber band around my wrist and snap it when the flashback starts. I must have used up at least 15 rubber bands. They stretched out so fast, granted it could also be from the hot water when I wash my hands or shower. Anyway, but I recently, that technique doesn't help, it make things worst, it brings backthe flashbacks and they are stronger. Oh goody.
Not feeling the best today.. Lost a lot of great people in the last few months and It just keeps coming... My depression isn't getting any better but not getting any worse... I know there will be better days... Just so hard sometimes... Today I bearly got out of bed.. After I did that I just we get and laid on the couch. Hopping tomorrow is better
@Cole102201
I have had runs in life like that. It's easy to think that the future will follow the same trend, but it doesn't. Regarding not feeling like getting up and living life. I've been there and wish resources such as these forums and the Depression Support room were around then. You're doing ok :)
Life in itself is a daily battle. dealing with depression adds extra's we all can do without. Iam a positive person....When i give my mind over to positive thing's like soft gentle music, inspiration movies, helping other's feel good about themselves helps me fell better about me. Battling depression is not easy. Depression is a battle in the mind due to some hellish experience in life. Their are so many thing's-people telling us who we should be, how we should act, speak, and look...What i am learning is just be myself, accept myself for all that i am and all that i am not. Their are no perfect people in this world, nor will their ever be. We all are flawed and imperfect. As i encourage myself i encourage other's just like me,who feel left out, lonely, worthless, unloved, and unwanted...You are needed, You are wanted, You have special gift's and talent's that only you have. You are worthy of Love and you give the best Love. Focus more on the thing's you are and less on the thing's you are not. Love your self, nobody can Love You better than You.
Doesn't look like things are going to get any better