Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Today was a bad one. It was my estranged father's birthday. He one was my best friend and 2 years ago he left and I haven't seen or talked to him since. My husband is clueless as to why I'm in deep thought today. I feel isolated and am afraid I will never feel true happiness again in my life which is why I have not had children yet

I feel empty. I feel like I don't know what to feel.

I feel like I'm stuck at the bottom of a well clinging to life but the world just keeps on using the water paying no mind to the hand reaching up for help

Bored with everything and everyone. Kind of sad also.

Agitated. I'm experiencing some setbacks in my recovery, but I'm trying to be more patient with myself.

As though I have no sanctuary and there is none.

Empty. Worthless. Sad.

Hating myself. Anxious about going back to school soon. My friends will ignore me when I come back again. Afraid of talking with friends, teachers.

I feel hopeless because I feel like things will never get better and lonely because I feel like no one understands

im numb.. And I want to die.. I want the pain to stop and the numbness to go away..

Overwhelmed sad but optimistic

I feel disgusted of myself

I feel optimistic....and it's a first.

That's a great start my dear!

My depression is laughing at me, giving me a bit of hope at first that I can be healed, and then slamming my face into the wall, shouting slurs. .

Recovery is hard.

That's exactly how I feel! When I start getting a bit better, I suddenly get really bad and it's like I don't deserve to be happy!

@Skye7426, and in these moments it's important that we endure and keep going.

Sending you my strength and support. We can do it!

I feel like nothing is going right in my life. Once again I've made a mistake (or a series of mistakes) that have led up to this point. Everything I do ends up being a failure. Just my luck 😒

I feel weird. Just down for some reason but I'm not sure why

That's how I feel too! Like it just randomly hits me at times, and I don't know what to do at that point. It leaves me feeling sort of vulnerable.

I feel terrible today! Hate how debilitating depression is. I have stress, anxiety, bulimia and started cutting myself last week! It's getting worse!!!

Today I accepted that i've been depressed over 4 years now. I feel scared

Today I feel....I don't know...sad? It's like whenever someone is around me I'm okay, not happy, but I'm also not sad. Then they leave and my depression suddenly envelops me and I'm sad again.

I have intrusive thoughts during the day and by night it only gets worse and my anxiety shoots through the roof..... that is my daily life :)

Unmotivated to participate in life.

Ok, not great pretty crap actually

Decent enough.

When I started: Helpless

After joining: Glimmer of hope

Now: I feel like I have someone that actually listens.

@ManicMonsoon, I'm glad that you've reached out. Have a lovely day! ^^

numb

I feel that my existence is irrelevant and idk why I'm here. When I reach out and talk to my friends I know they understand and care but I feel pathetic for talking about my problems at all. I feel like it's childish and Im19 I feel like I need to grow up and stop feeling/acting this way

Feel like running away from all my problems...

To be honest horrible I feel so depressed I can't move.

I would like to die right now I really hate my life so bad I get depressed and self harm and then when I want help from my friends they tell me of for self harming so right now I would peob wanna die so ibsont have to put up with life anymore

I hear you. I want to die so badly right now. Any time I tell someone that or act out everyone gets pissed at me and makes it about themselves. It's getting really hard not to and there's less reasons of why i shouldn't every day

i feel like i am at a dead end and void.

angry af

Rejected

Hurricane drunk </3

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