Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

It is life nd u have to live it, with a smile on face or a tear in eyes its your choice..!!

Am barely able to inhale, I hold each breath like it's the last. My chest is so tight, mind is full of depressive thoughts. Trying to get out of bed is a serious struggle beyond belief. I feel alone, insignificant, unworthy, Sick to my stomach and do not want to face my shit To-do list. But job is riding on it 2 day and homes in foreclosure. Boss/HR is forcing me 2 explain times Out Of Office (OOO) back to last Nov. I checked wrong boxes on FMLA forms, now called on carpet n jobs riding on explanations for leave. FUCKING freaking out. Daughter was raped by brother in law for YEARS, SHE IS STRONGER THAN I will ever b, she's only 13. She's a self-harmer got the help she needed he's doing so good I'm so impressed good job kid . I just want to tell her I'm so sorry for my moods, adhd, depression anxiety and sorry God gave her me as a mom. She didn't ask for this yet here we are. Someday I hope to be as strong as she is because right now I'm falling apart. What a loser right? I'm on that drawing strength from her child , that's just wrong . It should be the other way around . But since I'm the only provider in the family got to find strength somewhere. And I will. She set me up w/this app. What A GR8DAY kiddo, I'm very lucky. OK time to stop avoiding my work number face the piper. Oh this is my first time on the site & 1st post. I feel bit better, thx.

I just feel so hopeless and lonely, as though I don't deserve to be happy. I feel like an overwhelming burden to my family. It hurts me to know how much they worry about me. And I have no motivation or confidence to do anything. I just can't find a way out of this hole I've dug for myself.

I feel like I can't move, I have so much to do but no motivation :(

Like I'm a total failure. I have been trying to take care of my dog this whole time and I thought I was helping her but in reality I was just making her worse. Now it's so bad besides giving her an antibiotic and hoping for the best all I can do is wait.

Empty, but also like I have too many emotions to control. Unmotivated.

Helpess,useless,empty

Confused.. Like I'm walking in a fog.

Upset worried about life, wanting to do something to improve my way of life but the lack of motivation is awfuk

Empty and worthless, but my motivation is getting a little bit better