Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Tougher than ever but I'm just trying to pull through. Sleep isn't happening tonight and that scares me if what the future hold for me

My first post like this, depression well yea, it has a good grip on me, trying deal with it, an life just keeps getting in the way, like my wife of 14 yrs just left to go li e with the guy she has been committing adultery with N she took my son but left my daughter, my daughter is just so up set at what she did. An is creeper out by the guy. My son game e me up for a Playstation 4 the guy has, so I really feel like crap, so this really sucks, lots of emotions. Can't seem to shake the mind numbing feeling to crawl into a hole. But at least my daughter's love brighten my day.

Thanks

Is crying a lot a sign of depression?

Anxious about my school work

Frustrated and upset whatever I do.

Ok, better then otherdays you could say.

Proud of myself. I've accepted responsibility for being & acting like a bitch after dealing with traffic. Apologized. Tried & emotional. Loved & thankful. Happy. At peace. Enjoying time with my baby girl & her sweetheart at their home.

I want to say that I am okay and happy or struggling and down, but I honestly don't know. I go through phases where everything just sucks and it feels like the walls are crashing in. Then there are others where everything is okay. The medication is supposed to keep the overwhelming sadness away. I hate that I have to rely on it to feel normal. Today I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders and everyone and everything has it out for me. All I want to do is crawl in bed and never leave. I know this will only hurt me. Today I feel like the world has it out for me.

I feel good. Nothing bad has happened to put me in a bad mood, but it's only eleven so things change throughout the day. I've taken my meds, so that helps, too.

When I woke up today I was okay but now I just feel like crying

i feel good.. waking up knowing that i still have my purpose in this world, to help and serve the Lord..

My anxiety and depression have been really bad lately. i think it has to do with my job which is really frustrating because when I first started working there I thought it was what I wanted to do and a month later I started questioning if that's what I want my future to be. now I dread going, the days feel longer and when I'm actually home I just lay in bed because I don't have the energy or motivation to do something productive. I've also noticed I've gotten a lot more suicidal than I have been in the last year or so and I can't make those thoughts go away. I'm getting really bad really fast and it's terrifying, I really thought I had gotten better.