Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I'm actually feeling kind of manic. After 2 weeks of depression I feel almost hyper. I'm restless and I agitated, however, there's still this lingering sadness. How do I level out?

I feel like a failure at life. Like my life will never get any better..

I'm tired, the kind of tired that sleep can not fix. I do not find joy anymore. Food used to be a comfort and now it's a hindrance. It causes more pain than comfort. I do not have any outside social interactions except for on my phone and my Bear says I'm pushing him away by being on my phone too much. Because of health issues I sleep alone, I'm emotionally & sexually starving! I am stuck at home. I have no life. I cook and clean and eat. Everyday same thing. My highlight is getting to leave the house even if is to grocery shop and pay bills. I suffer through everyday... Wanting the day to end so I can escape the pain and go back to sleep, if I can sleep. Everyday I want it to end quickly, not to get to the next day but to escape reality.

I'm just so tired... I just want to quit. I'm 468lbs of i'm broken life.

Like a failure. Nothing works.

I've tried my hardest to make myself happy and being successful to not avail. The world seems to go against me but no one notices. I write poetry to help but someone can see the true ink pouring out of my eyes before them. I know I have it better than many people around the world, but we all have problems. So,é times, it seems that not all of us are fixable. Sometimes I want to all just to end, but my friends are what pushes me, without them,....Imdomt know where I could be...

Sad cry all Day nothing does interest me

I feel like 7 years of on and off employment (mostly off) have left me unable to appreciate finally getting a job, even if I enjoy it. It's like, this doesn't really matter big-picture-wise. Jobs seem trivial and hold none of the anxiety they did when I was desperate for one. Now it's just "Whatever, this one won't last either."

Sad, really looking for hope and positivity in the future but can't seem to see the light.

I'm not doing so well today.... I feel overwhelmed and I'm having a hard time holding myself together, which is made worse by the fact that I'm at work and I hate crying in public...

I'm feeling overwhelmed at work. Not because I'm busy, but because coworkers keep trying to teach me new things, but I hate that I don't learn as fast as others and I'm too nervous to ask questions because I don't want them to know that I can't do it right.

I feel so useless today. I'm feeling sad for no reason and all I've done is cry

I feel as if I am reckless to other people's lives and have Noone who would actually care if I was gone. But I love my daughter and refuse to give up