Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

today i feel ok. had some unwelcomed anxiety but thats becoming the norm.

I feel pretty well today which is unusual but I'm grateful for all of the good days I can get

Had a pretty good day. Got stressed when I came home but am honestly trying to roll with it.

I feel so lonely and repulsed by myself. I'm so tired all day everyday but can't sleep at night. Everyone's too busy for me. I hate myself and my body. I'm too weak. *sigh*

Today , I've been smiling , laughing.

Even thoughivee been dead inside. Its like I'm numb . but in pain. And I've been wanting to cry all day and for some reason fallout boy sugar we're going down made me cry like a baby.

This week has been a good week. I've been able to tell my depression to back off, but I'm afraid for when I can't anymore.

No one knows nor care.

No one bothers about depression. It's just an accessory to your daily life.

I want everything to stop. I want to dissappear. I don't wanna know tomorrow. . Help me.

@anenigma I'm feeling the same way right now, I came here to hopefully calm myself down by trying to talk about what's wrong. Let me here your story and maybe hopefully you will feel just a little bit better

I had a rough morning. I wanted to dress up and enjoy Easter, but it was very chilly and cloudy, so that got me down. Holidays are always hard because my family is so fractured ( parents divorced 5 years ago and still don't talk to each other.) I feel like we're not a family anymore, just some ppl related to each other. Hits me hardest on days like this.

I feel worthless, and unwanted. I don't even think anyone care about me, I don't really blame them though, I'm not a good person.

@impartialTree3773 I feel the same way too. I always do. I have no idea where that feeling come from or how to cope up.

I just sitting there, passing time.

To make it bright, how about I send a virtual hug and u tell me what u are doing for Easter...

@impartialTree3773 how old are u?

I think, taking care of someone and feeling belongingness might give some content...(to both of us, in this situation).

I am trying to help. Don't be offended, please

@helloTree6084

I'm only 13.

@impartialTree3773 oh, u have soany friends and so many stories to make..u probably need assurance from your parents. have you tried talking to them about how you feel anxious sometimes..

Make a new friend tomm...:)

I feel worthless, and disgusting.

My boyfriend and I often discus our future and having a family.

but today he said he wouldn't have kids with me unless I lost weight because he doesn't want to have a child whose parents will die young. It's not that he finds me unattractive.

I understand that...

but it still makes me feel conscious about everything I do.

As usual, insignificant. I have been hurt badly twice this week, but nobody cared. It's always 'oh, keep going. Your brother is hungry.' His stomach always comes before my pain and well being. It took some really bad chafing that never happened before for my mother to pay some attention to me. And my brother is still so selfish, he won't leave me to air out my leg in peace. He just keeps texting. If I become an amputee, it'll serve them right. I don't want to be one, but if it happens, they're to blame.

I don't really have a reason to be this miserable. And that makes me feel like my feelings aren't valid, like I'm faking it. It makes me feel like a terrible person.

I feel like everything I do is never good enough. I do so much with work and school and for my boyfriend but I feel that I am never appreciated. I feel that I am being used and everyone could truely care less about me. The only people that I feel are actually proud of me is my grandma and mother. I feel that if I was gone that those are the only two people that would actually care. And with my work i always help others and care for others but I feel I don't get anything in return. I do so much for people but no one does anything for me...I need to make myself happy some how...

A friend died on Easter morning. I do not know how to deal with it.

Open yourself up to someone and let the tears role. Let someone help u feal better instead of shutting everyone out like I did when my nan died

I feel as though everything I do is not good enough. I'm constantly thinking about the past & what I did wrong & how I could've done better.

not good. Nights are bad, nights are really, really bad.

Really down, I just feel like I wanna die, but at the same time I don't, but I don't see a future, I doubt know who am I and who am I wanna be?!!

@PurpleAndBlueSunStar I feel the same way :( this article I found explains this feeling really well http://themighty.com/2016/03/when-youre-suicidal-but-you-dont-want-to-die/?utm_source=share-bar&utm_medium=twitter&utm_campaign=sumome_share

Unsatisfied, tired, and empty

Honestly, I feel spiritually tired, unmotivated but motivated. An extroverted introvert... I fucking hate it.. My life is moving forward but it feels like everything is crashing.. It feels like everyone is becoming distant.. The woman I love has fallen out of love, or she wasn't in live to begin with. Idk. My mental problem are becoming more prominent.. I just want to be numb but i need to feel.... The forest is dark and lonely, she's my fire but the light seems to be moving away, making the shadows of my mind stir.

Crappy. I went to work though and even made a coworker laugh so I guess that's a plus.

A lot I think about the past, and think what could've been. It's a constant thing and I feel like I can't continue on living now because I feel like I'm in a daze. I constantly feel like I'm looking in at my life and not really living my life to the fullest. I'm always tired and not here..

Sad, upset, angry, lonely, lost, alone. Just to name a few.

@SaraLynn3004

My scares are starting to fade, I feel kinda sad that I won't see them anymore. In my head they are the proof that I was in so much pain and it was real, without them it's like nothing happened and everything I say about my pain is a lie because the is no proof it ever happening

@peachSailboat2974 It's gonna be okay.Please don't harm yourself because you are harming others who care about you at the same time.Stay strong.

I am feeling okay today. I forced myself to do the dishes and some laundry and now I am drinking some coffee and practicing mindfulness. Im on day 4 of no crying, which feels good. I just hope my thoughts don't turn negative today.

I feel like shit and all I can do is feel it.

Terrible....

Nothing at all; not even empty.

CORBIN FROM VIRGINIA WHERE ARE YOU?????

Idk how to delete this hah

Tired

Need someone to talk to..