Weekly Prompt #20: If you could do anything tomorrow, it would be________ (Complete the sentence)
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This week's prompt: If you could do anything tomorrow, it would be________
Depression can be really challenging and make one feel stuck. I wanted to start a discussion on if you could do anything tomorrow. Big or small, mini or tiny, or anything in between, everything counts. Share with us and I look forward to hearing and discussing with you all!
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I would write an entire book's worth of horror stories, or maybe two - or three.
@WharfRat Interesting. Why horror?
@mish3l
It's always been my favorite kind of story and movie.
@WharfRat Writing multiple books' worth of horror stories sounds like a creative goal that excites you. What draws you to expressing yourself through that genre in particular?
@ASilentObserver
I became a fan of horror movies and horror stories when I was little. My sister and I both liked that stuff when we were little. I stayed a fan all my life.
@ASilentObserver i would go out and do something fun like hiking or explore a new part of the country I've never been. I'd take photos and enjoy some time alone or with a very good friend
Be able hug and kiss and talk to my late mother I lost Dec of 2002 to ALS
@bgdave I am sorry to hear that Dave. You must deeply miss her presence in your life. I understand how meaningful it would be to connect with your mother again. Losing someone to ALS is incredibly difficult.
@ASilentObserver it would be relaxing! definitely need that :3
@KateDoskocilova I hear you Kate and good to see you. It sounds like you could use some relaxation time. What activities help you feel most at ease?
I would be by the beach
@nataliestermer8 It sounds like spending time by the beach would be relaxing for you. What is it about being by the beach that you find peaceful?
the sound of the waterbon the beach
the sound of the water
@ASilentObserver I would just want to run away somewhere no one knows me and could never find me. Even thinking of this makes me feel horrible mother but we all have our moments I guess. Thank you.
@ASilentObserver
I'm not sure what to choose… Feels like I have a huge backlog to select from... And as much as would like to say something like going out, spending time with my partner, I look around and see my place is one big, dirty clutter… And I can't do anything else, without dealing with it first, but at the same time I don't know where to start, it's overwhelming.
I guess what I would like the most is to have a clear head and be less judgmental and anxious about my situation… I would like to know what I want…
@Buzzingbeezon It sounds like you have a lot on your mind and many options to consider. Having so many choices can indeed feel overwhelming. How does all of this make you feel inside?
@ASilentObserver
It feels as if chaos outside took over my psyche as well. But it’s been this way for so long, I got used to it… I pretend I don’t see it and somehow I carry on. And when my partner tries to convince me that I have to do something about it, that I need to have a structure, I know that she’s right, but I don’t want to hear about it. It’s almost like a trigger to me. I freeze and feel even more disoriented than usual. I’m trying to figure out why I’m reacting like this…
@Buzzingbeezon It sounds like you have been dealing with a lot internally for a long time. Having chaos feel like it's taken over can make it difficult to see clearly or feel in control. Yet you have found ways to continue moving forward each day. Your feelings of disorientation and freezing up when structure is mentioned show how deeply this affects you.
@ASilentObserver I would love to wake up tomorrow and have the confidence to face the day. To not wake up dreading the day ahead, to just wake up happy and confident would be so nice.
@VintageDougers Thank you for sharing how you feel, Vintage. Waking up with confidence and happiness each day is something many of us wish for. What aspects of the day ahead make you feel less confident currently?
@ASilentObserver Thank you for your reply and follow up. I appreciate that you ask questions that make me think.
My mom passed July 26th, last week was the 3 month anniversary. And her birthday is November 9th which is next week. I think those things are weighing on me pretty heavy.
I also struggle every Monday with a sense of dread about the week to come. I relate this to work and this feeling that I can't enjoy life while I have to work, life is too short to spend the majority of it working, but at the same time it's difficult to enjoy life without the money that you get from working. I have a good job where I feel respected and appreciated. My boss is an amazing person who is always understanding of my need for time away when it happens. I have every reason to feel happy and fulfilled and I just don't.
@VintageDougers Grief comes in waves, and anniversaries can feel especially hard. Your feelings of sadness and loss are valid. I understand this time of year brings up difficult memories and emotions as you reflect on your mother's passing and upcoming birthday. It is clear you cared deeply for her. It's also understandable that dreading Mondays adds to your sense of unease. While working provides stability, it's natural to crave more fulfillment and time to process your grief. Please know that these feelings don't define you - you're more than your pain or circumstances. You've made it this far through strength and perseverance. And we are all here with you to listen to and support you in this journey.