A break from depression and 7cups.
Okay well here I am, back with another post, I know they are not the best when I post and they can get depressing but this time I have to do this. To those who may have forgotten me i was Kingburger23 but recently I got a name change to my real name which you all know me as CallumKing2000 these days, however that is not what this post is about, I am making this post to let people know and my cups friends, I hope they are my friends, that I am taking a small vacation break, you see some of you knew today that I went into the sharing circle to share and I shared my feelings and thoughts, and when I shared I went back and I got so so sooo anxious to ask again so I logged out had an anxiety attack and logged back in and shared a few hours after explaining I need a break in General, so if people can pass on the news to the mindfulness team and just explain I won't be there for a while. As of tomorrow I will be booking into a hotel for a week to clear my mind and have some me time as I am not used to being around people alot, I just wanted to let people know that I am okay I will be taking time and I'll be doing mindfulness while alone. I just wanted to let folks know around here that I'm thinking of them and what they may be going through, so I will take my leave for tonight and get some rest and be freshed up for tomorrow. Look after each other guys. And I'll see you all when I get back. I love you ❤️
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P.S, I also wanted to tag goldenpear but she has numbers in her name and I was looking for her. Thanks 🤜🤛
@CallumKing2000 If you need a break then take it. We do what we have to.
Be as well as you can.
@CallumKing2000 Hey, King, I just got this because my name wasn't spelled right which is ok, and I'm glad I stumbled on this. I wrote on your other post where you said you give up and I realize I can't give you any good reasons for anything, but that I just want to assure you that no matter what you think of yourself right now, you are Good, you are Worthy, and you are Enough, and that I'm adding you to my list of people I pray for every day if that's ok with you.
Back with another update post. And I ask to keep me in your thoughts during another hard time of depression bcuz it doesn't want to leave me alone it creeps back on me and I give up even fighting it, it's to a point where I'm just like 'whatever' and just can't be bothered at this point, all day today I've been in a foul mood and just been toxic to everyone and its not fair expecially with what I'm going through also and I know it's no excuse but I really think it's taking over me
Hey, King, you’ve been through so much. I wish your life could be easier. Love and Courage, Patience. I think about you friend and you’re on my list of people. Be careful. Call your people if you get stuck. Life can be a terrible struggle. You’re not alone and you’ve got people.
Sending lots of strength and peace. Sometimes the acceptance can also be a little of a way to healing. I hope that it will be for you as well. You don't escape it but you learn to live better with it. @CallumKing2000
Hey, King, I knew you back when you were Death Row. Of course, my name was different toooooooo. What I want to say is: take the time you need to get back to who You are. You are important and worthy just as you are. A website ain't gonna do that for you. It can't "make" you feel any certain way. Your feelings come from inside. You've got a lot of people here who care about you and want you to be well, but sometimes taking that step away, especially from technology (see my 20-20-20 rule below) are the healthiest ones.
Much love, Tas
Happy Yorkshire day 🌸
Just giving another update for those who have followed on with the post and stuff, I have been away 2x this month and taken on and off breaks, they have worked-ish, it's just I'm a very peaceful creature, I like to sit in silence with no noise whatsoever, I don't like to watch TV but bcuz of my situation I have to watch it bcuz it's not my home. I can't just say no to what other people enjoy, I have to go by the rules and such but I'm that guy that likes to close all the curtains shut the windows sit in darkness and silence, I don't know why but I just like it, it brings me comfort sitting here and not all the time I'm like that, u know I do like a bit of light from time to time just not all the time u know. I mean I've tried to get back into things I do but can't seem to do it but I started reading comic books and those on my phone too they've helped bit by bit and stuff so I'm just trying new things out to keep me going and my mind going. Also I went out to a nail salon place not for me but for my mother so I took the kingdom hearts comic series(based on the video game) I've been reading and literally finished it within 30 to 40 minutes which isn't bad and I'm not normally that excited to read but I did it and it was fun but yeah thats that. Thanks for reading again and take care for now 🥰
That stuff all sounds really great. Healing starts to happen in little fits and starts that almost appear unrecognizable at first. But all those things that you are doing are exactly those types of healing things. Being in silence, reading comics, etc. are all perfectly legitimate things to do. Now you just need to find some other comic series. @CallumKing2000
@CallumKing2000 Hey King! I've found taking a break here and there and some days with the curtains drawn is just the thing sometimes, but our pup won't let me take a break, so most days I have to walk here three times and just getting outside has a way of lifting up my mood --- we live around a lot of trees so I also have to stay away from ticks and spiders, which are really attracted to me because I'm so sweet lol. Quiet is definitely nice. Yesterday the team of guys -- there were like 9 of them -- were taking down a dead tree but they didn't just only take it down, they also made a trunkful of mulch so they had one of those grinder things, and instead of using a crane to put the log into the truck, they cut the trunk into rounds, so it was the buzzing of the chainsaw until deep into the night. I think they put their headlights on the truck on their work so they could see what they were doing. It was like dull mosquitoes all night through the walls.
Well, not gonna lie, I don't like when people leave or even take breaks, but I can't be two faced about it, since I like my breaks myself very very much. Anyway, I'm glad you are liking your comics and that you went to the nail salon with your mum. You're helping her out with your presence so there's that. Also, sounds like you're tearing through the comics, which is great.
Anyway, take care, and I hope you check back in here or I even see you around sometimes.
Love and Courage, Patience
@CallumKing2000 Hey King, i just found this post. Hope u are doing good. Lots of tasty food for you 🍕🥤
Reading comics is so much fun. You too take care 💖 and dont forget the horses 🐴 hehehe 😁
@CallumKing2000 Also, take as many breaks as you want, whatever helps u feel better. We are always here for you.
Sending you all the healing beams. ☺️💖
Just to let everyone know, I am gonna be explain this the best way i can, u see around march time my mental health has gotten worse and worse to the point that I am severely mentally challenged, u see I had to find out myself what was getting worser and worser with my mind and I had to figure it out on my own and I did, I have realised why I am experiencing these very very dark thoughts and feelings and odd things happening, it's bcuz I've gone from depression to extreme depression and now know I've got bipolar you see, I had to find out myself bcuz the doctors or any medical professional think they know best and say no no no all the time and they think they know it all but WE all know our bodies and our emotions and feelings. So this is just to say that if I don't seem very cheary or happy or not talkative, it's bcuz im having an episode of bipolar or just not in the mood anymore. I need help but bcuz im a man they won't give me it. I've asked and tried but still get "we can't do anything" the whole system is corrupt. I really Am not having a great time with life at the moment and I'm scared it's gonna get even worse. I wasn't meant to be here this isn't right. I'm taking a break here I'll leave my account up but idk I keep taking breaks then getting worse and worse, I just want peace in my mind and let my demons leave me alone please just for 1 damn day please. I know I rant alot im sorry if I've put any pain on anyone I just don't know where else to go.
There is no need to ever apologize for the rants or for needing to take breaks or for any of it. You are facing a difficult, frustrating situation and you are allowed to be mad and want something better for yourself.
We are here to help you on the path not to judge you. Whenever you come back we are ready to listen. @CallumKing2000
@bestVase7265 thank you I really appreciate your words
I really mean them.@CallumKing2000
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Dear King, You indeed know yourself best and you know how you are feeling the best. Also, being treated badly or not taken seriously ("doffed off" someone taught me that expression) by professionals hurts very deeply when you know yourself and you are trying so hard to chase away your demons that are haunting you. Shoo, shoo, demons! Go away from King! It's devastating and isolating to have to do all that work yourself. And yet still you will always have a safe place to land here whenever you are ready to be back or even to check your messages. Just know that. You have people who care about you, even the messy and depressing parts. Here for ya, buddy. Ok! You're gonna figure this out. I just know it. I have a great belief in you, that you are a good person, because I've seen it, and so I know that's who you truly are and I remember you this way. Plus someday I'll have real grandchildren and I'll have to tell you about them, right? Their little fingers and toes. Their cute little faces. In the meantime, you're gonna have to do what you gotta do. Super huge hugs friend. Love and Courage, Patience
If listeners say 1 more damn thing to me to ruin my day then you keep doing it bcuz your ruining my mood and mental state your doing a DAMN GOOD JOB AT MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY. I've had enough ain't nobody riding with me on my enemies I realise I'm the only person I'm down with here so yeah to those listeners who keep pestering me thanks, THANKS A DAMN LOT, I'm mentally ill as it is 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡
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Hi there CallimKing2000, sorry to hear, is there something I can do for you? If you want to drop me a message please do.
Maybe listeners aren't the way to go for you. They certainly aren't perfect. What would happen if you just used the page here to tell us stuff?@CallumKing2000
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Hey, King, it's me, Patience. Have you ever seen that movie, "Catch me if you can?" In it the dad tells a story of a mouse caught in a pitcher of cream. The mouse was struggling and he kept kicking and kicking and struggling and finally because of all the kicking, he turned the cream to butter and he was able to climb out of the pitcher. That's all I got for ya. I know you're struggling, but I also have great faith in you that you're going to figure this out. And, I wish people would take it seriously when you say you are struggling. I believe you. Moreover, I believe in you as a good person, and I wish these demons and depression could leave your mind. Much love and affection and support. Grandma Patience Pat the Cat
@PatienceImpatiens a good way of putting it, I admit I typed that when I was angry so it was out of anger obviously now that I calmed down I don't really know how to feel about it, it was something that took over me and I'll be honest we all say things sometimes out of anger but sometimes don't mean it but yes I'll admit it, we all gotta keep trying till we all free sometimes