Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami it's ok not to be ok sweetie ❤ you talk here when your ready to ❤ I will always be here to support and comfort you. I'm just leaving you messages so you know how much I do care. And when your feeling a bit better we can have a nice chat ❤ when your feeling a bit better, maybe a could tell me how it went with the home support appointment ❤ hugs you tightly ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami and yep I'm very lucky to have my piggies 😁 I only managed to get pets, because my carers got them classed as therapy pets😁 otherwise your not supposed to have animals in the care home
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hugs you tightly ❤ I love you ❤
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@Tinywhisper11
Happy Birthday Beautiful Angel,
Today is a day not to reflect on any of the negative events of the past, but a day to reflect on how far you’ve come. A day to reflect on all the wonderful people you have interacted with and infected with your love, kindness, positivity, strength, and sheer joy.
I have been beyond blessed with your love and friendship. I am in awe of you and your strength and determination. I am forever thankful and grateful to you for your friendship. Even when you are struggling you still find the strength to reach out and support me. You inspire me to try and be a better person.
I wish I was a poet or someone who could create some fancy page with all kinds of fancy stuff . I am not a creative person, and as you well know I don’t celebrate anything so my inexperience obviously shows, but that doesn’t matter.
You are a beautiful angel, I love you and I hope today, as well as every other day brings you happiness and love.
Happy birthday…………❤️❤️❤️❤️I Love You ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami 😁😁😁❤ ❤ I don't need a fancy poem, or piece of art. I have the best present anyone could ever have, a friend like you ❤❤ thank you for this sweet message, I love you so much ❤ hugs you tightly ❤ thankyou for remembering it's my birthday 😁❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hi sweetie ❤ I hope your in a better head space than the past few days ❤ after today I'm gonna be disappearing for a few days, but don't worry I'll still be here to hold your hand ❤ and I'll be back as soon as I can ❤ hugs you tightly ❤I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
❤️❤️Hugging you snuggly in my loving arms and I am there with you throughout the procedure. I love you❤️❤️
@Tinywhisper11 Wishing you a happy birthday and a really quick and easy recovery<3 Get back to us healthy and soon ^-^
@BlueDarkAurora thankyou ❤❤
Day after day I wonder, why do I continue to wake up. I see no purpose or reasoning how continuing to do so could bear anything remotely in the direction of a positive result. It should be a crime to let somebody live this way. But quite the opposite, it's a crime for that person who is living that way, to opt out. Which by definition, is the stupidest law on the books. There is no point to anything relating to me.
That's all I can really grasp on to right now, I slept so much of him so very tired and weak. I've slept so much on the list I'm guessing couple days my meds are all messed up on schedule, and then to boot, it must be daylight savings time today. Saw that at an extra kicker on my med schedule. If I wake up and say an hour before my med time, as hard as I try to stay awake, I still fall asleep and miss my dose. So maybe I should start just going ahead and taking my meds at that point that's a little early, better to take them an hour early then several hours late. That's it for now.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami all the ways that you come up with to tackle whatever problem comes your way, shows that somewhere in you the hope for this all to get better is still burning bright. There is still some fight left in you.
Somedays we don't get to have a reason, those are really the darkest of them all and we just have to hold on for our heart that deserves to see it all get better someday<3
I was laying here trying to figure out the words to put down here. And I keep thinking why I say the same thing that I have probably said here hundreds of times before? Nothing has changed, at least nothing for the better. Pardon me, I have found family and friends here in this Community so on the scale of positivity that would be something I suppose. But I refer to what I deal with on a daily basis this recent situation of however many months I've been laid up here. I pushed to excruciating pain just to do simple tasks to what end. I've made my bed now I have to lay in it home alone with no wonder rely on but myself and myself just doesn't care, no strength left, no desire left, no reason left. I mean really the only people that have begun to care about are here in this Community and their ones that I will never have the luxury of meeting in person. And times I wonder in this world of AI come how real is anything that is done on the Internet? Faith and technology. Does probably just my psychological nonsense that's playing up, my paranoia. Anyway, I will leave it with the following message for tiny
❤️❤️❤️ thinking of you and hugging you snuggly, I love you❤️❤️❤️
To you @Iamwhoiamwhoami and @Tinywhisper11
