My 20 years old marriage..
Hi there, I am 43, a mother of one and married for 20+ years for the love of my life. Just over time we became best friends, I became the main income earner, car driver, decision maker and his business supporter. He's great in comforting and understanding me. I've been faithful to him all that time.
Until recently when shockingly to me I had a crush on another man and I split with my husband. The other guy was making me feel like a woman - taking me out, choosing restaurants, paying the bill (while I was doing that in my marriage). However, things didn't work out, he was hot and cold, insecure about me and I couldn't handle that so we interrupted that short relationship.
Now I'm completely lost. Do I get back to my husband (he's willing to), where I was feeling ok-ish but not really like a woman, and the scariest thing - I think I love my husband as a best friend but I have no physical attraction anymore and this is so hard to experience..
Can I revive the feelings I had or if I've been attracted to another person that means that my marriage is exhausted beyond repair?!
Don't know what to do, don't know who I am.. My whole life and work are being affected now by the messy situation in my brain.. Help! ❤️