All i can say is only the person who wears the shoe knows where it pinches. but as said when u experiences such problems where it was only you who had to go through trouble or problem or lets say any abuse and in this case if you want to share these things with someone but u feel bit hesitated as you do not trust the person or that person simply don't seem to bother . Talk to me because i know exactly how you feel. I understand. Only thing you need to tell your self is that you are the best, you can do it. If thousands of other people ever have problem they fix it. there are ways to deal with every issue in life. No one better understand you than you your self i can show you the path which discovered when i was in trouble.