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i'm so stressed and i have no friends rn jus need a hug 😔
@errorethan
*hugs ethan*
Sorry to hear you stressed hope that you feeling better soon<3
I kind of want one if anyone sees this. Kind of scared of them, so giving might be difficult, but I’ve been feeling frail and vulnerable lately and I just felt like asking.
My brain has been so unstable for awhile and I’m coping horribly. Kind of losing lots of progress. I’d just kind of want a big hug. Usually I feel too lonely, guarded or alienated to open up just for those things, but I felt like saying I’d kind of want one here
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend I feel this way alot too - it's ok :) This is a super safe - super gentle hug for you
@mytwistedsoul
Hey really thanks so much, I really appreciate that. Thanks for the gentle and safe hugs. my brain gets so intense as of late, kind of losing it
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend You're welcome! I'm sorry to hear your brains intense right now does anything help calm is down?
@mytwistedsoul
Not directly, everything just escalates a bit too much. I kind of function as multiple, and usually I'd try to feel safe and more comfortable alone, in a way kind of similar to age regression if you know about that. But I've sort of a veil of stress or maybe dissociation constantly, my brain's not thinking in the most reliable ways. Kind of trails off a bit. Still able to do school and lab protocols, but it's just not thinking right. Kind of overelying on anything I can, and that's actually not ok, but that's fine. It usually gets more stable after awhile. I've just not been functioning the same in this sense. Just emotions ramp up in some set ways, but I just desperately kind of need cohesion or clarity right now
My base stress has been going way too low after moving from extremely stressful places/city and people, and then after so much time struggling alone and working on things, I found a small community online. First time I feel at home or ok in that sense, and maybe I'm getting more ready for those things sometimes. But internally it's gotten more confusing and unpredictable than ever before. Right now I feel like I should isolate and be on guard in some really set type of mindspace for self care, cannot shake it, but I feel like I'm losing that sense of community and semi friendships, or just that happiness I finally found, and years of progress, and it's confusing since it feels really set. I got so many messages and it's bringing back an older instance of this. I just also would want to feel safe and take care of more sensitive subjects in the way I mentioned, but I just keep feeling on stress and shaken, it's not calming down for him idk
And sorry for writing a ton, I'm just saying. I know it was a straightforward question, I was just writing
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend Hey :) no worries ok? You can write as much as you want to. Do you have much communication between you and the others? Or maybe you're closer to one in particular that can give you an idea what's causing the stress? It you moved recently - even if it was to some place less stressful - its a pretty big change for everyone. Is there something you can pinpoint when it comes to the feeling of losing that sense of community and friendships? Maybe something happened that you're not aware of? I know its not really good to isolate but at the same time sometimes we need to to find some calmness. Especially if someone inside is feeling overwhelmed. Like here people take self care breaks sometimes
@mytwistedsoul
Well there’s some communication and we’ve a space to vent and be genuine, so there's a little bit of that. I try to explain or convey things ok, but I'm kind of unable to trust anyone to understand or notice in general.
I’ve never been close to anyone, but I doubt anyone would be too familiar with what could trigger any sort of distress for me or anything. I did mention lots of things, but I doubt any would remember like I usually do for them.
As for moving - I’ve been away from the old apt. since a few years, despite visiting for weeks some times. Last year was the first year I managed to stay away a bit more, apart from in the holidays. I am completely broken mentally everytime I’ve to see that place honestly. It gets so bad for weeks after getting out, no matter how far. I mentioned not being there anymore in the sense that so many stressors aren’t there anymore and I used to function more familiarly and cohesively when feeling constant survival or wariness. Though maybe that's also an outdated thing at this point, since I've worked against those mechanisms for years. And yeah, moving is excessively stressful in its own ways for me, but not rn.
There’s just too many ways to answer that feeling of losing those things, and contexts that affect anxiety/fear/stress over it. Honestly I feel like I’ve to constantly be overly there for them to not go away, and at least 4 separate aspects of what’s going on right now could just go on for so long, and usually isolating doesn’t help at all. I’m not ready to talk of some difficult stuff.
Regardless, it’s just that I’ve disappeared and am really not feeling like I’ll feel able to go back any time soon, and will be so anxious about it once I’m ready. It’s like the 3rd time I go silent and idk if they’re as unconditional as I would always be. I don’t understand high maintenance people in any capacity, so it’s always anxious that some might be like that. I’m not able to feel bonds in any way, and it’s pretty new over there. I do need some of the isolation rn, and many parts are beyond overwhelmed - but my brain is just so unstable and intense, and it might only get worse and spiral. Idk when to accept that it won’t get better, or how to have a grip on whatever is going on enough to accept anything. It's actually going pretty awful right now mentally and functionally. But it’ll be figured out in some capacity idk
And like I was alluding to, I really feel like I’ve no cohesion or ground in self care anymore. I can’t trust anything right now or be adequately there. It’s making my anxiety so bad
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend I hope that Things settle for you soon. The constant alertness is tiring. Try to take good care of yourself!
@mytwistedsoul
Hey thank you for that. It really is for me, and thanks for the kindness. It kind of feels easier to do so now honestly
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend Here's a big hug for you!
@PandaStarlight thank you so much !!
I could really use a hug! 🥺💕
@Elle5319 warm hugsss🤗💕
Thank you!!!🥲🤗
I'd like a hug too if possible. I'm currently hugging a big stuffed animal (the ikea polar bear), but it's nowhere as good as a real hug
And for those that want a hug, here's a panda hug for all of you!
I hope all your days are going to be amazing!
Love, PandaStarlight
@PandaStarlight
*big hugs*
@ScaredLongNeckedFrend Thank you for the hug!
I need a big hug, right now. Feeling lonely and down.
@rosebeinghappy18 aw big warm comfy *hugssss* 🤗❤️
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Thank you so much. I need this hug.
@Laura @rosebeinghappy18 A hug sounds great! 💛
Today I cleaned up my apartment after 3 months of being depressed from being let go from my job. On unemployment and working on my self care. That includes working out, meeting up with friends, snuggling with my pets, and significant other. Life is like a wave in the ocean there will be constant ups and downs it’s all about how you navigate through the storm. 🌊
@playfulBlossom37
Big hug to you! Kudos to you on cleaning up your apartment. It's good that you're taking steps with self-care. You're rocking this.
@rosebeinghappy18 sending you the biggest hug!!!!!!! :)
@rosebeinghappy18 -HUGS-
I may be giving up a 23 year career in architecture as a drafter-designer to become a visual artist. I need a hug, he says nervously. :)
@Swordpsalm that's very brave of you. Sending supportive hugs. Hope everything works out the way you want and hope
@W4nderingsoul
I have my first video interview tomorrow that is going to be posted to an online gallery.
I will have a solo exhibition for 1 week in Sept this year.
@Swordpsalm
Actually, the exhibit got moved up to June.
@Swordpsalm
That's amazing, congratulations!!
Wishing you all the best on this new chapter of your life.
I need a hug because, today - for the first time, I fully Understood and Accepted, that the way I am treated by my dad and his family - is ABUSE. Absolutely, without a doubt, abuse. A different kind of abuse that I received from them in childhood, but abuse all the same. That I am a full grown adult and have been ACCEPTING abuse and I keep going back to them , allowing more. Allowing them to control my life still. How did I not SEE this before? How did I keep going back to them? I feel so stupid and ashamed. 😭
@blissedNblessed
Don't feel so bad, It took me 50 years to figure out that my own mother was the toxic one in our family.
It's something to learn from and then advocate for yourself as you move forward whilst leaving them behind for your own sanity :)
@juliak1968
Thank you for sharing that with me...I am sorry you had to go through that. But I am damn proud you left them behind and found sanity and peace :)
That's the hard part for me - leaving them behind. I have already made the decision to - just doing emotional prep work and figuring out how to do it. Battling all the ingrained guilt and sifting through the guilt they throw at me. Unlearning everything I was taught, so that I CAN leave and free myself. I owe Myself this freedom!
Need a hug 🥺
@quickwittedTangerine3078 warm *hugs* ❤
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I needed a good hug
@BobWeaver *Hugssss*