Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Checkin Wednesday July 4th 2018
Hey guys!! Okay, I gotta make this short and sweet cuz my power went out so Im posting from my phone, which means I dont exactly have much room to work with.
Today, for all you Americans out there, is the Fourth of July!! Now, what that has meant for me is that it sounds like bombs are going off basically 24/7 for the last couple weeks and, if the same thing happens this year as every year, I wont be able to see from all the smoke in the air later. Super great times. Whew. It is really getting hot in here. Okay. Anyway, I love fireworks, but only when I intend to hear them. All these unexpected and random booms have really been messing with my anxiety. More super great times lol! I hope you can enjoy this day spent with family and loved ones, and take some time to relax. I also very sincerely hope none of you lose power, or if you do that you live somewhere cool cuz omg Im dyin over here! 😓
Stop in and let us know how youre doing 😊❤️💙
And if you would all like to join us for a karaoke party the next few days please head on over to this link and join in the fun. You trauma folk usually know how to sing and we'd love to hear your voices once again. 
Please click here for all the fun
And to enter your pets into our Pet Show which was the ingenious idea of Hope, one of the Trauma teams teens, then head on over here
@BeeLeigh
hi Bee
@Tenacity37
Hey Tenacity! How are you?
@BeeLeigh
I just woke up, I have prac again today, my coordinators want me to talk rather than shutting down because of being consistently invalidated, they still want me to try.
@Tenacity37
Hi! That sounds challenging! Here is some encouragement and a safe hug ❤️ if you want one! How did it end up going for you?
@KLM3278
I don't know until after today (it's Thursday morning here)
@Tenacity37
Okay!!!! Well, let us know ❤️
Stopping by to say hi, having a tough time so just trying to take it hour by hour and keep myself grounded. Too much going on in my head and now looks like I could potentially lose the one constant thing I have which is my work. They are doing a management restructure and I am officially in consultation as my job is at risk. May even mean I could be moved to another location after already uprooting myself from everyone I know a short while ago. More pleasant thoughts to torture myself with 😭😭😭
@crimsonLime6525
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@BeeLeigh is ok, just something else for me to blame myself for
@crimsonLime6525
Oh this sounds difficult. I think ot sounds like you are doing good things - staying grounded, not thinking about it to. And maybe what you are fearful will happen might not even happen❤️❤️❤️❤️ Let us know how you are doing and what does happen! Thinking of you!!!
PUNISH ME, PUNISH ME FOR WHAT I'VE DONE... BLOCK ME I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WANT IT. ITS MY FREAKING FAULT EVERYTIME SO DO IT AND PUNISH ME FOR THAT. CAUSE I'M FREAKING WRONG ALL THE TIME. YOU HAD ENOUGH OF ME, I KNOW IT. TELL ME NOT TO BOTHER YOU AGAIN TELL ME AND I FREAKING WONT. I KNOW WHAT YOU GONNA THINK ABOUT ME AND THIS TEXT. ITS BETTER TO SHUT UP AND NOT TALK AGAIN, YOU KNOW WHY? BECAUSE I'M NEVER ABLE TO SAY WHAT I FEEL. I'M ALWAYS DOING WRONG THINGS, ALWAYS SAY THE WRONG THINGS AND PEOPLE END UP MAD AND ANGRY WITH ME.
@sensitiveShade5337
Come here...
@BeeLeigh
im sorry for messing up in your check in
@sensitiveShade5337
You didn
@BeeLeigh
I wish I could believe I'm always welcome here. I don't want to put words in people's mouths but I don't feel welcome in here anymore and I don't feel like people care anymore here. I'm not gonna say what exactly happened bc I'm not that kind of human and even if someone (from the people I trust) talk to me bad in here I will never keep it on them bc I know it was my fault. I always forgive but I don't forget those things that hurt me.
@sensitiveShade5337 Hey shade you know your welcome here anytime and you havent done anything wrong. But quit the capitals okay, as that comes across harsh on the eyes and looks as though its shouting but you havent done anything wrong okay. If you need to vent thats okay and if you need a shoulder to cry on thats okay too, or if you just want a safe hug or place to be, thats fine too.
@sensitiveShade5337
We all love you shade
@BeeLeigh
Happy 4th of July! Todays been a challenging day but I'm pushing through. Luckly the day is over now and I'm about to crash/sleep but thought I'd check in before I do, cauz I havent done so in awhile and I just felt like saying hi.
Hi <3
@WaterLily16
Oh and I also wanted to show off my new display picture :) <3
@WaterLily16
Hi 
Your profile pic is sweet, I like it
@WaterLily16 Love the new picture Lily and I hope to see you in the karaoke party too perhaps with a new song or perhaps sharing your trauma anthem once again?
@WaterLily16
So so SO'OoooooOOooo glad you did say HI ❤️