Trauma Support Community Check-in: Saturday 24th of April 2021

@elizabethunter i am doing really well right now. i was able to get out of my abuser's life for good and expose what he's done to the public. and that made so many other people step forward to talk about what he did to them as well, so i feel like i did a good thing.

how are you?

Hello, I’m okay, I’ve created boundaries for myself to not work on any creative projects or job hunt. I even told myself even let go of the worries, pressures, and stressors of society. Which felt so good to let go of, even just for 2 days. Yet, of course the idea that I am unemployed with BA in art, makes me feel like a failure at my age is in the background of my head but I’m trying to let it just flow, there is room for all of my feelings. However, I’ve been finding myself sometimes not knowing what to do. Which is funny, but then I tell myself to just take one step and then take another. Thank you for the lovely check in! How are you? ❤️

How are you? You want the loaded honest answer huh? Well I am fighting my hand as I type. . . I have a brace on it, and my fingers are still throbbing, numb, and tingly. I have a doctor's appointment for it on May 6th. I am very nervous as most doctors think that losing weight is the answer for everything. I have PCOS and thyriod issues which causes weight lose to be very hard. Between carpal tunnel and gout . . . it's very hard to exercise without pain.
My female issues have made me very tired and moody.

I'm in a bad-tricking living situation. . . I cannot find a job and our income between my family is limited. Everything because of this stupid pandemic has gone up including rent.

I am in love with my boyfriend. I believe he loves me, but he will not push his ex aside because he is afraid she will got postal and suidical. He will blame himself if she does something stupid. I feel like she wants hom back and it manipilating him because of it. She gets whatever she wants because he is scared to say or do something wrong, so I am getting the short end of everything, because I am the stable one. However he has my heart and I do not see myself with anyone else. I just wish his ex would simply move on.

Hi,

Normally, I would have enough and a bit more to say. However, tonight, I do not feel like talking about myself at all, as I have been working hard on re-grouping myself all day and do not wish to go back down the rabbit tunnel. Thank you for asking.

Not really sure how im doing in all honestly, but breathing and that’s my goal for now. Wondering about who i am to others and how many friendships i have that are truly genuine. Really just organizing my thoughts into something more comprehensible. I’ve been in my head more than I’d like to admit. Continuing on with life and progress though.

Made it through church today. Was very scared. Lady came over to us and told us she used to cut our hair over 45 years ago. She wanted to know if we remembered her. We shook our heard no. She seemed disappointed and left. It is not ok that she gets to know about out life then and we do not. We are afraid to ask her what she knows about back then. We may not want to know or find out as so much bad was going on. We have lots of parts of years we do not know about. We are glad we all are back here and safe.

@elizabethunter I am not doing so well right now. Sundays make me feel sad and even more stuck and depressive. I suffered this traumatic event a long time ago, and it feels like I'll never be able to overcome it. I can never forgive myself for not having the guts to report or to act against it. Everything was doing great but i guess some kind of stress a while ago brought it all back, and now I get triggered really often, i am having nightmares, i've been sleeping 4/5 hours tops, and i've been having a hard time putting my ...together. I feel like I have this hole of emptiness in my chest and this huge sadness taking over me. All while putting up a smile and pretending nothing of such is going on.

I'm doing ehh. School sucks but I have good friends. I'm in the middle of a case to press charges on my abuser so that is stressful. I'm really fatigued most of the time. I'm working on life rn

@elizabethunter glad things are better for you. I got the nerve up to show up at a domestic violence agency for an anonymous chat. If I want to go back, I'd have to identify myself. I haven't decided what I want to do.

I for one am feeling incredible. Back in school, trying new things, learning to play acoustic guitar, getting back into golfing, painting. Just got back from a week at the beach and I really just want to get back in my groove as a forum supporter again. I left unexpectedly six months ago and just recently got to a point where I could make time for it without conflicting with work or school. I do hope you all are doing well and had wonderful weekends my friends!