Trauma Support Community Check-in: Saturday 24th of April 2021
Hi everyone!
I wasn't avaliable on 7 cups for a while due to some personal problems I had. But, now I am back and ready to talk to you guys again!
This check in is just asking you:
🍀 How are you? I dont want the answer: "I am okay..." Be honest, be open, tell us why you are okay, why you are bad or why you are great. Dont hesitate to write an essay as an answer to this question.
xoxo
Elena
@elizabethunter
Hello, Elena. I'm sorry about the personal problems you had and I hope you're better now. I'm glad you're back and I hope everything is going ok for you.
How are you?
I can't find a better word to describe it than tired. I am too tired. Tired of dealing with the memories that are still alive in my mind. Tired of sleepless nights with fear for nightmares. Tired of being all alone five days a week. Tired of school. Tired of everything.
@elizabethunter Hi Elena - to answer your question honestly, I'm a ball of nerves at the moment. Not sleeping more than a couple of hours each night, and that's with meds to help, worried about how to keep myself from derailing. Ended up in hospital on Friday with heart arrhythmia caused by stress, stopped breathing several times. So not at a good point at all. On a positive note, I might have got myself bumped up the list for MH support from my local team because of what happened on Friday, but time will tell as nobody can say how quickly that will start. Trying not to think of SH right now as I just want the release.
Wow, I'm so glad that you are back! 😀 So I'm feeling great because I love supporting this community! ❤ How are you feeling?
@Greenchoice1 Hi I am having trouble sending you a PM. I am not sure why I can't. Could you send me a PM when it is convinient for you. Thank you.
@Greenchoice1 Cancel the previous message. I think that I figured it out. 
That's great! I'm glad that you figured it out I never knew that it isn't easy to PM me. 😝
Btw I tried to PM but I can't get through... So try messaging me. 💚
@Greenchoice1 I am on the adult side, so I think that is why . Sorry for the confusion!
Oh, I get it! Yeah sorry for the inconvenience. I'm still on the teenie side. 💗
@elizabethunter
How are you?
Exhausted, Honestly. Sleeping has been a big struggle the past few days and two trauma anneversaries are next week. On top of that, lots of family stress and paranoia
@elizabethunter
If I had to be honest. I'm doing terrible. I've been struggling a lot lately......Life is a lot lately, but gotta be "fine", right? <3
@EmJayyy
totally understand and sorry life has been hard, with lots of struggles lately. really know what you mean about just have to say and pretend it is all just "fine." I hope things get some better for you. glad you are here with us and can at least say and let us know how you are really doing.
Dear elizabeth, I'm fairly new to this community and I've had some great encouragement here on 7 cups. I have a very long and painful abuse story that I will share another time. I have CPTSD/MDD . I had to leave my job because of my condition. I'm doing better because I'm in therapy/meds. But I still have bad emotional rollercoaster days. I had about a 14 days rest from it but I'm on it right now. I did get a massage yesterday but I sobbed for the first 20 minutes. My spa person knows about my stuff so she is really wonderful to me and is trying to help me. Today just running around the house cleaning, cooking, laundry, painting, etc to keep busy so I don't just sit on the couch crying all day. I'm in my 50s so harder for me to find alot of support. This is why I came to 7 cups. Thank you for being here, your so appreciated! ABB 💜
