SITUATIONSHIP!!
I've been in a girls' school since my childhood. I've had my first guy interaction with this guy, lets call him Z . He is my father's best friend's son. So we met at his house then we went on a family trip and I started liking him. We are from different cities. When I got back home we started having conversations on *** messenger and I grew fond of him even more. A year later I decided to confess him. When I did he didn't give me a clear response. I felt broken. I started distancing myself but still preserving our friendship. A year later, he confessed he started liking me too but he refused to get into a relationship as we belong to different cities and he didn't want a LDR. So it grew into a situationship. Things were normal in the starting but as the time passed, our expectations towards each other increased which we were not able to fulfill. I started having anxiety attacks. So I turned my full focus towards my career and he also felt, that maybe I am moving on from him, 6 months passed like this, then I went with my parents to meet my grandma who lives in the same city as him and his house is a just a few streets away from hers, so we also went to his house. I had acted extremely casual, didn't even allow him to hug me when I came home I got his message. He asked why was I acting so distant, I told him it's nothing like that and the conversation went on. So my hopes got back, then he confessed to me that he still likes me and that he thought I had moved on from him, but he still didn't want LDR.
I came back to where I was 6 months ago, I lost all my moving on progress and now it is tough for me to move on again. WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW!!!!! I can't block him or cut contacts with him as he is a family friend and my parents' don't know about our situation so I don't wanna involve them. Feels like I'm stuck. I just wanna fall out of love with him and behave like normal friends do.