Introduction & Community Check in
Hello Everyone 😃
I wanted to take a moment to introduce myself. My name is SummerKay(puffer) 🐡✨️ and ive been sober from alcohol and drugs 17 months. I will be here as a forum support leader so would love to hear from you guys.
What is something you do to refrain your mindset when you get addiction cravings ?
For me this past week I've been struggling with the idea of relapse ... so I tried sushi and indulged in caramel latte. Listened to music and did some journaling/coloring and mindfulness. Did not relapsed kept crawling out
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I have been sober several years, I have had a lot of thoughts of not being sober for several months. I can’t credit anything except due to my physical issues and the medications they have me on It would be a decision that would probably mean the end of me.
I struggle with many lifetime issues including severe depression, multiple anxieties, and a recent addition, debilitating back and leg pain.
The longer this goes on , (I have been off work and bedridden for nearly two months), the longer this goes on the closer I get to the relapse that I probably won’t recover from.
I am trying to find that something that you are asking about so I don’t fall back into that which will not end well.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami
So glad you're here so brave of you to search for that something. So proud of you for fighting for that healing. Tools(mindfulness) to keep my mind busy helped me tremendously and radical acceptance. Don't give up you got this.
Rooting for you're healing and peace.
Kay 🐡✨️✨️✨️
@SummerKay2024
I go for a walk,run or hiking.
🐸Kermit
@wonderfulKermit1936
Thats amazing ✨️✨️I love all those things as well.
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@SummerKay2024
Congratulations on making such strides it's truly inspiring!
I find myself diving into a game. I like building and often try different building games. If I'm bored of gaming watching a series until I sleep is my next go to, sometimes even watching people build things on you tube can be relaxing and help me sleep. Still trying to be more active, even just a small walk - I find it was easier 'forced' in rehab - I keep reminding myself to try though.
@oliveStrings4899
So proud of you olive 🫒✨️ rooting for ur healing and sobriety ✨️✨️
Walks, new foods ,journaling mindfulness , even just talking has helped me along the way.
So glad to see you here
Kay 🐡✨️✨️✨️
@SummerKay2024
Ahhhh I finally found how to get back here 😂
Puffer someone asked me what made me come to 7 cups and I feel like for the first time my brain actually answered without the clouded fog of stupid in my mind lol I found myself talking about things that happened years ago but in saying all this to that person noticed how yeah I had my fights with my family back then but still I was the problem, even back then with my addiction, I ... Uughhh where was I going with this ... Uhh damn, I hope I can continue to improve
@oliveStrings4899
Olive everyday is a fight 🌟🌟
You are improving and fighting for sobriety and healing
So proud of you olive 🫒
Sending you strength 🐡✨️✨️✨️
@SummerKay2024
Feeling. Sad, ashamed, stupid, worthless.
Why sad - It doesn't matter how much time passes with success, time and time again i have eventually failed.
Why ashamed - I have messed up in ways I'm not prepared to talk about, even if i let those regrets go, they are still there and scratch away at me at random times throughout my life, from the back of my mind saying remember this, this is how low you are.
Why stupid - when i need to talk to someone, when i feel i need to be heard i cannot express my feelings and if i try to the words still don't come out how they are meant to, if at all, talking around in circles without having touched on what i want to.
Why worthless - I'm defective, out of order so to speak, everything is a mission, everything is hard.
Explain what can't be expressed - I feel a massive wave of guilt shame and disgust for all the regrets i have, i dont like who i was in the past or who i am now. Improvement does not feel possible for my future and if it does come to be that i best ny addiction battle for good, a success story for once and for all, I'm still broken, stupid, worthless and pathetic.
@oliveStrings4899
Olive idk if you remember my story or why I got sober.
But two years ago my girlfriend came to visit me.. we went out to party ✨️✨️
We smoked drinked got trashed..
I was ready to leave the bar and left her there
She drove home that night and passed away in a dui car accident.
I feel disgust with myself almost every day but I had to learn to forgive myself and try to give myself grace. I miss her so much. I think about all the things I could have done differently that night.
All I have left now if to grow and be light in darkness
I have been sober for 17 months and don't you think it's easy, because that would be a lie.
But puffer is tired of being alone misunderstood and broken. Only way out was healing.
Olive anytime you need to talk or having triggers find me.
Sending you so much strength and love
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@SummerKay2024
❤️🫂✨ Crying so much even more now throat hurting from it all, heart. Soul. Get back to you as soon as I can puff. Thank you so much for being here!
Thank you for sharing about your journey, I appreciate your vulnerability. Thanks Kay!
@blueLemon6419
Of course 🐡✨️
So nice to see you here 💙✨️
@blueLemon6419
Hey hope today went well..I will be in depression room later..🐡✨️🌟
@SummerKay2024 thank you. I will look for you.
@blueLemon6419
I'm back in there
@SummerKay2024 where u go