i feel drained
@navyKiwi1776
It seems like you're really worn out, and studying with the weight of depression is making things feel difficult right now. You mentioned that you can't keep your eyes open - it must be so frustrating to want to get things done but feel like your body and mind just won’t cooperate. It sounds like there's a deep sense of exhaustion, and that might be making everything feel heavier and harder to push through. You're trying to study, but it's clear that the energy for it just isn’t there, which must feel really discouraging. Does this happen often when you try to study, or is today feeling especially difficult?
it has been like this for a long time
@navyKiwi1776
It sounds like this has been a really long and exhausting struggle for you. Dealing with this over an extended period must be incredibly draining, both mentally and physically. It seems like you're not just dealing with the challenge of studying, but also with the weight of how long this has been affecting you. That must feel really tough, like you're stuck in this cycle of exhaustion. How are you managing to cope with it day to day? Please know, you can always reach out to a listener ❤️
I really am grateful for your understanding Izzy. I couldn't break the cycle for years. I thought I was being lazy, but a lazy person would enjoy their laziness and wouldn't even try. I have been trying to manage it by going to bed around 11-12 pm and waking up around 4-5 am. My mind and environment calms down when its night, i still feel tired though. But i forced myself to wake up. The time is still not enough. I have school through the day from 8.40-15.45. Im currently in 11th grade and have to study for university exam. I really feel behind of everyone. I've been on medication both for mental and physical health for 6 days and the nausea and fatigue is killing me. At school I'm constantly on the edge. Especially struggling with speaking exams because of the lack of air I constantly feel
@navyKiwi1776
It really does sound so difficult, it's clear you're trying really hard, even if it doesn’t feel like enough.
You’re definitely not lazy - waking up early and pushing through despite the exhaustion shows just how determined you are. I can imagine how overwhelming it must feel with school, the university exam pressure, and the side effects of your medication. It’s no wonder you're feeling constantly on edge, especially with the added strain during speaking exams. You're doing your best despite everything, and that really stands out.
