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trigger warning: self harm
Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 2 days ago
...See more I've been feeling compulsive to hit my head repeatedly for a year, almost everyday. I'm trying to not as I can but it hurts more when i don't. And lately, these months i started to get overwhelmed so easily by my surroundings, or little things such as plan changes, even the way i put down the salt to the table. I tense up and feel the need to cover my ears or eyes. It hurts my brain. I'm 16. I'm concerned that I might have given myself a mild brain trauma. I cant ask help from my parents. When I had a breakdown like that in front of my mother because she raised her hand at me, she just mocked me by telling me to keep hitting myself. I dont really think the school counselor could help, I dont even know how to bring that up. I've been feeling hungry for air for at least 6 months and my heart hurts everyday. I'm stuck. All I want is to be able to study and degree at my university exam but I can't even stay still without starting to fidget sharply or hit myself repeatedly
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Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 September 1st
...See more the images on my mind and sensations on my body are overwhelming i dont know what to do i dont know talk to who i dont have anyone to
I cant get enough air
Anxiety Support / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 June 26th
...See more Even though I appear calm, I don't feel like I can breathe adequately. I feel pressure in my head and it feels like something is sitting on my heart. i feel a bit dizzy. But it's been 4 days without interruption. In the past, it used to take 1-2 days and even took 10 days. I don't understand if the reason is anxiety. Its not too intense im able to handle it. I do not have any other physical diseases, I do not have asthma
i am aware of things but i cant believe it
Depression Support / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 June 22nd
...See more i need someone to tell me physical abuse in any way by a parent is not alright. i cant understand if my situation is serious or not. they say they had the worse and their actions are not even enough and cant even called beating up. i dont want to go spesific but i think they were enough. they act caring and supportive in other ways at the same time. its confusing. i dont know what to expect from them. i dont expect from them anything in generally anymore. they feel like strangers in the same house. one day getting hugged and one day getting hit is confusing me. I get very angry when it happens to someone else, but when it happens to me it feels normal. i know it sounds really distorted but i want to get beaten up and there were times i pushed them to get physical
vent
Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 June 20th
...See more I have an urge to hit my head everytime I do or say something that I think wrong. The urge increases everytime I look in the mirror. Sometimes it happens even when there is nothing. I am trying to not acting on it but its too overwhelming I feel like something is punching my head and I want to act on it so bad
im just gonna vent here i might delete this app later idk
Self-Harm Recovery / by navyKiwi1776
Last post
 May 31st
...See more I'm 16 now. It's been nearly 2 years i've felt bad. I tried to act logical with my thoughts as I could. I've tried to cope with healthy ways, meditation, weight lifting, writing. But it kept getting worse over months. It's hard to keep my eyes open. My brain feels foggy. Everytime i get overwhelmed i start to have self harm sensations and images running into my mind and body. I've acted on the urges rarely. It feels like something keeps punching my head. I'm so tired of being yelled and not being listened, blamed and getting hit. Looking in the mirror is disgusting. My face has felt numb/heavy for months, it hurts. I've learned to live with the chest pain. Things just go really bad when I'm at school and i have to speak in front if the class. I wasn't like that before but I can't stop shaking now. I like being on my own, being alone is not a big deal for me. But I just forgot how to interact easily with people, it feels so bad. I had interests. I wanted to improve my interests. But I don't have the energy for anything. I keep failing and spiraling and i dont know what to do about it. Even if i sleep enough i still feel tired. I thought about speaking to the school counsellor but I just dont know. No matter how it may be the opposite i still feel ashamed and im afraid i cant express myself. i never could express myself to anyone. i dont know how to ask for help
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