how long have you been self harm free? (possible trigger warning: SH)
I've seen this sort of thing on a couple of other sites.
It's to put your accomplishments, relapses or anything you want it to be
you could post every day if you need to or once a month, no accomplishments too small.
and if you relapse, you are strong. and you can do this.
I will try get back to as many people as I can and if you need message me on here.
if this doesn't work oh well, but id like to see it work.
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About 2 years.
Goodbye crewl world, im leaving here today
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I wrote out a promise to myself (because i value my word as my bond) not to sh again. Its been almost 2 days and im determined not to take out my frustrations on me any more. I may need help and if i feel like i have to sh again i will drive straight to the hospital and ask for that help, and i will take any advice they may offer. This has to stop and i must learn to appreciate myself enough to learn whatever is available.
I've been sh free for 2 years now. Before that one time, it had been 3 years. Before that it had been 1 year. Each time I would go back and sh, I felt so ashamed, like I toppled this fantastic achievement that I had been working for. But, every day sh free is an achievement. I still want to, all the time. But it doesn't take away the fact that I have stopped many times. Even if I go back now, I hope I'm not ashamed. I just hope to never fall into that habitual cycle of sh'ing every day. 2 days may seem like nothing. But it's not. It is very much something you should be proud of and I hope it is the beginning of being sh free for you. Much love. @TartRipeApples
@NomoNosferatu
Thank you, my first time lasted 8 solid months of being total despondant after a suicide in my family. I just became disconnected and determined. I was commited and being watched 24/7 and the urges finally eased and i attended a great number of groups learning to cope and got on medications, i began to get strong and even began writting a self help book about my painful but wisdom filled journey. I was very luck to have very wonderful people around teaching me to overcome that. 12 years passed and my book never was finished because i got busy living well and then three bad things happened all at once and i experienced sever anxiety attacks that scared and suffocated me so bad that i thought i had to end the pain any way i could. I addmited myself to the hospital and followed up with 6 weeks intensive out pateint, i had 8 ok months but it happened again and idiation was very bad, ive spend the past 16 months now overcoming this but the holiday was very hard. I need 2020 vision so the 2020 new year can be better. Im so tired and worn out now and get paniced and manic but cannot subject myself to the embarrasing er hospital visit, strip search, johnny gown, insanity because those reminders bring back the original days of begging to end it and im very afraid if i lost control i could really be in a mess and in trouble. Its hard right now. I really want the right help but the past makes it impossible so im isolated and going this all alone with just 7cups as my distraction. Whew...
282 days, still counting. I have a day-counter widget on my phone's homescreen so I can see it easily. Several days ago I almost gave in, though. This widget helped me a little to feel more optimistic. I don't want to reset these numbers, was something that I was telling myself. I hope everyone can find a way to cope with the urge. Stay strong <3
5 days. nothing in comparison to everyone else tho
@beesxcheese
It's not a competition! You deciding to stop for any length of time is a HUGE accomplishment!
Do your best, and take it slow. You've got this!
Barely a week :S
@EvilRegalsReadToo
Hang in there! You've got this! <3
Well it would be a year in 1 week exactly. I
1 week
5 years 2 months and 11 days.
@phantom4te Congrats!!
@phantom4te
i believe 12 to 12 and a half years now.
@TobyGRodman69
ive had lots of close calls, sometimes even been about to harm myself, but ive somehow managed to hold on.
About 2 1/2 hours.
Before that, since Oct. 2019, and before that, since some time in 2015.
I've been slipping a little lately, but I'm still trying!