Steps to Taking Care of Myself

i forgave you and said id like to keep in touch & maybe be friends again. But in november you showed me i couldnt trust you & i made the decision to leave us behind. I cant be friends with someone i cant trust. And i have to be real with myself and admit that i wanted to see you to try and feel how i used to. You've given me some of my best memories that ill never forget. You very well might be my favorite part of high school. And I couldnt stop talking to you because i still love you and that isnt good for me. I cant just keep running back to people who hurt me just because i miss what we used to be. I need to learn how to move on and i dont think i can do that if im constantly hoping for a text from you. Yes its convenient that youll be gone so moving on might be a little easier but i dont think that is truly moving on. i didnt see you for months and i thought i was almost over it. But then i saw u again and it hit me twice as hard. I guess i never really did wanna move on before because i missed you too much. But i need to be smart about it now. And this probably doesnt matter at all because we wont be seeing each other maybe for a very long time if ever. But i need to be the one taking charge of getting over you instead having it forced on me because of the distance. But yeah, have a safe ride back, it was really nice seeing you last night.