Loneliness feels like a lurking shadow
Hello all. 32 year old female here. I have been in 2 relationships, the last one being in 2016....and I have never been in true love. After my last relationship, I was on and off the online dating scene for years but unfortunately did not meet the right people. I realize that as a female in her 30's it will only get tougher from here (it was always difficult anyways) and I am exhausted as it is. So I have decided to live life as a happily single woman...but it has been hard. I still find myself with a void to fill, and though I've been filling it to the best of my ability (through writing, music, and drinking), I find that there is still an anger inside of me that rears its ugly head when I'm drunk. I just want to be okay with being lonely. Is it possible?